Through my grandson, I have understood how important the psychological relationship to the experience of wholeness is. To have it in a sense of belonging to a place and to the nature that surrounds it, as well as to the people who are in it in the form of the relation they all have to this psychic whole. Nature then becomes a physical relation, and it also becomes the experience of an energy-filled kinship that characterizes how everything in it is connected to each other. In my youth, I often experienced this as a sense of a psychic presence to this one-ness that I understood to be what everyone else also belonged to. I also experienced it as an idealizing force, an overwhelming sense of exaggeration, and as an overcrowding. I never imagined it as if it were entirely my own. I was in it, as it was in me. And all kinds of evil deeds in the world, peoples stress, injustice, sadness, anxiety or fear, all of what I experienced around me was something I related to psychologically, as if it had no relation, or living connection to that sense of an entireness. That it was somehow lost. And that the physical presence this wholeness created in us that everyone was linked to, was something just forgotten along with this sense of feeling of closeness to Nature as a psychological connection to place. Since I myself always had to re-link myself to it for my own wellbeing, I also thought that this was what everyone else was doing when needed to. I even thought it to be self-evident to mirror others with it. But to my astonishment I could not grasp why this wasn’t so. They just didn’t wanna have it. This connection was most often gone. Leaving me with with a sense of being strangely unrealistic. Or extremely naive. But through my grandson, I have realised that this is not just something related to children or young people in their development, and an expression of a kind of charming world aversion on the verge of autism. Instead, it is a very important part of our ability to self-consciousness and to be able to create a psychological relationship with other people. No one should have to endure to be simplified and reduced to a world of just do’s and don’ts in the sense that it doesn’t take this wholeness into account. We should carefully let every personality in his or her mind develop their identity in relation to this experience from where we all emerge. That is why, I have always had with me a kind of “totems” when it comes to this relationship to wholeness as a place, or something in it that relates to it, and a traditional craft that constantly reminds me of the contact I have with this shared inner world of wholeness I come from. Without this, my individuality would disappear and my existence would have no meaningful inner synthesis with my experience of the world as an aspect of this shared experience of primordial wholeness.
I have come to distance myself from the collective consciousness so much that, based on how we “should” look at ourselves only from the outside in, leads me to the strange experience that if I try to describe myself solely based on the generally accepted concepts and perceptions on which these are based, I will lose contact with myself. And if my underlying absolute ground of existence is based on a direct experience and on ideas founded on insights formed in my interior, then this will not be perceived as real in an external sense. My experiences will never be recognised or mirrored because they can only be validated by my personal description of them. It is as if the very source of our existence, from which everything originates, does not have any reality outside our collectively recognized notions. But regardless of this, there is a structural and personally predefined order of psychic forms that can most easily be described in the encounter we have with them as being forces that form the absolute foundation of how we experience the world. They are there, and they relate to me no matter what “design” principle I choose to describe it with. What makes this different for me is that it was already there for me before I could describe its inner order through the influence it has on me. There was already a kind of transpersonal behavior of something that can only be described as my first and most distant ancestors, which exists in an interstice and they emerge from this unknown and purely psychological origin. Of course I understand that the neglect of these issues is partly due to the unilateral dependence of our culture, and on our external identity. But by not listening to that other center, to the other second inner voice, or to unilaterally emphasize, and constantly make us dependent on external impressions, is like living in a culture that suffers from an obsessive hyperactivity disorder without any relation to its source. There is nothing there, we become empty in between our impulses and our actions. We even make this disturbance our accepted normal. And when this constant activity coincides, most people have no access to their own voice and the experiences we make in our encounter with it in an internal conversation, but even then they seek most explanations for this voice, not in the encounter with them. With the personal experiences we do, but in external forms of collective acceptance. No matter where we come from and the real inner experiences we make individually and in isolation from the enormous press that the influence of collective consciousness has on us. There are layers of generations of original experiences and how we collide with them in personal relationships within us that will also form our absolute basis for how we view our existence with value and meaning. Of course, I do not know how others perceive this, but based on this way of thinking and when I listen to how people reason today they actually seem “crazy”.
We live in communities here in the West that have almost completely lost touch with intuitive values; and to its approach to life that has its roots in the psychic flow that our personality once originated from. For our lifestyle, this means, among other things that what we call history does not exist in a meaningful way. These thought of, “distant” events of interior life, when they are recognized by us in our immediate temporal proximity, tend to be perceived as the majority’s common action in an event chain that extends far back in time. What many have realized is that this is a visualization in the present of a behavior that have always existed. History in this sense is that we intuitively derive an interminably number of the same type of experience, but now viewed from a timeless perspective of our psyche where our actions are understod to occur anywhere, at any time. We sense that they have always been ”there”, in us, and we personally recognize them as a human trait we share with all people collectively as a collectives memory that we call “history”. When we come to a turning point in our personal lives, it feels like we are in an endless repetition of similar behavior. Our history repeats itself. For many, it is also how we experience our present collective life through its endless repetition of old obsolete yet existing group behaviors. The question is for how long we will have to repeat our behavior before we accept its teachings and change. One such “timeless” experience of our psyche is that what we want to like about ourselves, we also relate to in other people, and that what our own unavowed mistakes are, is also what we reject in them. These are our own personal qualities. We let other people embody them for us. We let them, or an idea they convey, carry for us what we don’t want to manage in our own personality. The implication of this is what we call history. But behavior is not history. It is what we are, and do to each other here and now, repeatedly. History is a term we use to relieve us from our personal guilt in relation to other people, to avoid being individuals who are responsible participants in a collective life. History has turned itself into a personal and collectively projected confession. It becomes a mirror where the true form of our personal image is reflected back to us, not the ideal form which link us back to our origins as one of Natures manifestations in the infinite reservoir of interior life.
A “crazy” person turns everything into opposites. Both on a personal and collective level when he, or she act this out on other people. Anyone may be turned into an opponent which has to be confronted as part of an opposite. In politics, it is believed that this is for the good of all. But it only serves its own self-interest, or the preferred “good” side of an opposite to which we want to identify ourselves with. This is repeated almost everywhere in today’s society. People become addicted to self-interest. But our personal qualities, both what we like about ourselves that we relate to in others, and our own unavowed mistakes that we reject in them, are not to be found there. This is us embodied in them. They are our makeup mirror. And if we really look into it, we can see ourselves, how this works, and what excess of ourselves we transfer to others to carry around for us. Whether we like it or not, it’s really there. That’s the nature of the evil we let go of in the world. It is what we are.
I don’t know from where my being came. But my existence can be traced to the forms of our great psychic ancestors in the flow of life behind physical life. These ancestors also gave rise to all living forms, each founding a line of descendants comprising a living impression of its original living form, and their human counterparts, which are linked to us in the existence of psychic time. In these depths of the interior experience of raw Nature, the great ancestor beings dwelt and emerged by pushing themselves into psychic existence and to earth as they came from what we experience as our sense of timelessness, from what we consider past, present and the future, all in one. With it came also the explanation of the law which governs behaviour, the order of the world and of moral existence. This refers to the time of creation of all things as it is still unfolding alongside present events. It is continuously being recreated today as an experience of knowledge that is shared through a resonance in psychic time. Its meaning, not space and time connects all things. Psychic existence do not perceive space as distance. It is consciousness. And all spatial relationships in this space are primarily symbolic. They are an integral part of consciousness expressing itself as spatial order and form. And every form, humans included, are related to this order of things. It is the law of psychic identity. All characters in this timeless state are bounded by a kind of circularity, by what is psychic time; a cyclical, constantly recurring, essentially repetitive process which ensures the survival of all forms of psychic decendants through their reality of being, existing in the exterior world of physical time. As emerging descendants of these forms, the experience we have of our bodies becomes based on our psychic relationship to it. And if we lose touch with our psychic reality, the life of our bodies will act as symptoms for our failure.
Within our society, the loss of a sense of reality, in being in the present moment suffered by individuals, often reflects collective problems such as the devaluation of women, the projected narcissistic exploitation of individual human values or the emphasis on appearances rather than a meaningful relation to life. This corresponds to the traditional notion that the soul has been psychologically stolen by the attitude of the collective consciousness, that we have lost our connection to the flow of our deeper wellsprings of being. But if we tap into the flow of the psychic life of our culture by means of the relationship we experience as a reflected resonance in a shared consciousness of inner vision. Or experience it in the wilderness. In Nature as something that is actually inside our selves. We are experiencing the reality of this continuity of what we are across the barrier of the skin in the structure of our present moment where eternity is physicalized as place, which includes both our psychology and physiology. It is determined by the same dynamics as those which we obtain in nature at large. This is a genuine primordial experience of our communion with Nature as the flow of all psychic life. It is here it becomes a sacrament. Psyche and Nature are not separate entities. Psyche is the conscious experience of Nature. It is where it becomes conscious of itself. When I eat, it’s not just about quenching my hunger, getting the nutrients I need. It is also about the energy content in a psychic sense. When I eat this is transmitted to me. I experience a communion with the nature that surrounds me, and in a psychic sense we become one and the same. What it is I eat, how it is treated, and where it comes from is important to me. It also makes me aware of my relationship to the air I breathe and the water I drink. I experience this relationship in an absolute sense. That is why I spend so much time with myself outdoors. To listen. This experience is strongest for me there. I am that nature.
I have come to a place where I must allow myself to completely acknowledge my own experiences, to process them and merge with them without them being reduced to something else, either by myself or by anyone else. To take them at face value, and leave for others what they have to face of this on their own. Opinions about them doesn’t make any sense. It is just a defence against being authentic to oneself, and reduce everything to an attitude, or some dogmatic framework. My personal experience of inner and outer reality, of Nature itself have its own longings to re-link consciousness to its origins. It is as indispensable as a neurological imperative. It is not a matter of choice.
I agree with Jung when he says that; ”The developing (inner)personality obeys no caprice, no command, no insights, only brute necessities; it needs the motivating force of inner or outer fatalities.”
For how long has this not been a motif in my life! It is truly something that acts out of its own origin whether I have agreed with this or not.
It doesn’t matter where we place our original sense of wholeness. We will always experience it either as a loss of ourselves or as a dependency on where we place it, as a personal imperative desire for fulfillment from another party. From the outside, we become burdened by the impossible load imposed on us by someone else. Whether it is a person, a political cause, a religious or philosophical belief. The primordial sense of our lost totality is there. It is this numinous inner quality that is given to us as children. The demands, and the expectations that follow from our loss of it, are terrible. In fact, this is our transpersonal basis for personal evil. As a consequence, we do not reflect the I-ness of the existing shared connection we have of ourselves, between our individual sense of separateness, and the objective whole that is all our relations original experience of this wholeness. We just transfer it in the naive expectation that it will be fulfilled by someone or something else. We habitually try to control and dominate other people’s relationship between them and themselves. Only to maintain the view of a collective consciousness where everything is commonly believed to be a wonderful personal experience of the shared interior of the world as a mother in oceanic bliss. This is more than evident in people’s use of stimulants to self-medicate against the effects of the experiences we have of our separation from it, and the terrifying experiences that we initially have of ourselves in relation to a real and authentic relationship to nature, both in an inner and an outer sense.
All the world is happening in us. What we call ”the world” in an exterior sense is also within me. It is a constant stream of happenings and events that in its own way interacts with our personality. When we listens to this flow inside, it merges with the forces that organizes our impressions of what that is within. It has to be formulated and related to by them. Because these powers have their own voice in what constitutes our personal relation to the world, and we have to listen to what they have to say about it. Otherwise that ”world” will flood us, and turn our perceptions of it into a turmoil. Which will make us fall into a pattern of “picking” between opposites. Or we will just turn off in self-preservation and oceanic bliss since we experience our primordial sense of wholeness in its raw unprocessed form, and there will be no true “I” in it. The exterior world coalesce with the world within in the dynamics of what we are in the polarity between our individuality and our original totality. It is an ongoing reciprocal meeting with the outer reflection of this inner source. Either there is an axis between them. A pole acting as the worlds firmament. Holding it up for us as we travel it. Or there is just an emptiness. A void, and a vast barren and deserted land in a formless state of confusion that constantly floods us with its powers and confessions. This is how I imagine the meaning behind our great ”psychological” floods, and the ominous sense of the world’s doom. We picture our sensory perceptions as a flooding when they create havoc in our minds, and at the same time they destroy civilizations because if this is outlived, or staged there, in the world, we will tear it apart if we cannot hold it inside of us as part of our imagination. We ritualize this interior drama and play it out. The perception that we call fate always appear when something have to change. That is, it tells us about it, about our condition before the change occurs. It is the end of the world that was before. This compelling sense of fate is what sets our inner forces in motion for our coming change. Without knowing any details about it, this may very well be how we should interpretate Jung’s last visions before he died. It makes sense that this is where we can find most of the apocalyptic versions imagined by us as individuals when we are subjected to the overwhelming forces beyond the world of our I-ness. There is a reason why these kinds of visions are occurring right now, and it gives us a clear indication that we need to change something in relation to our world. It is not a coincidence that it is also about our environment, our climate and our animal husbandry.
It is not just me, I believe all people struggle with what is our moral experience of opposites, and of good and evil. But when push comes to shove, all that matters from any human perspective is the subjective experience by the suffering person. To maintain that what we experience as evil is something in the service of some higher good, is not of much use for that person. Why would they, or any human being have to suffer from what will be perceived as evil acts in the future, when they are affected by what are considered as evil acts independently of when they are struck by them. We suffer now. Our Nature do not distinguish between what is coming from nature. When harm is done to babies, or animals, or the environment, for example, it is never about if they have committed something to deserve what is happening to them. In an external sense, if I commit a wrong against another person, animal, insect or plants “Nature”, I will always fear what I know is an entitled repercussion because I’ve wronged its “Nature”. And that condition then constellates my encounter with Nature’s shared source inside my Self. It will become a phenomenon of my encounter with that; It belongs to that kind of experience. Or if I violate my “Nature” in what constitutes my totality by not paying attention, then it will affect my consciousness through its impact on me in a way that can cause me harm, or even kill me, when it affects my presence and my judgment in its attempt to draw attention to what I am missing in the relationship I have with the Nature of myself. We all experience great sufferings from this kind of meetings. But there are other intense experiences as well. Both painful and pleasant. They are part of our interior experience of life. However the affects its manifestations creates in us. It’s a manifestation of the Self; an onslaught of instincts. If one can relate to it with that understanding, then it becomes an experience with our own connector to the totality. And to life itself. Our world has all too well experienced what happens when we do not have this connection to ourselves.
We are all part of this totality called objective psyche. But we are also a part that owes its existence to the fact that it´s been able to separate itself, and exist like something separate of what it’s still a part of; being a living organic connection between the medium that it was born out of, and it’s own separatedness. This objective totality is the source which we are all connected to. We participate in it on a daily basis. Its within us, and it is expressed through us. It is our common source of mutual existence.
In every meeting we have with anyone else, we also meet in the polarity between our separateness and that source. It is a mutual meeting within the outer reflection of that inner source. Most of the time though, there is no organic connection between the medium that “we” was born out of, and the individual separatedness from that objective totality. Our relations tends to become confessions. Not an objective reflection of that inner reality, but a kind of superficiality of projected narcisissm. There is no perception of an effect of being a subject to this in which the nature of the connection between the ego and the self in our relations are both part of the same total organism, where what happens to us in this contact with the reality of this objectiveness, also has an effect on the other through the mechanism where we will let it undergo a tranformation in itself. By being mirrored by this other human or animal, insect, or plant individual in its own relation to the source of this objective totality, or original wholeness. Most of the time people only honor to control or dominate that which is others shared participation of this relation. It is what makes up the world we live in. Based on our being in this shared psychically subjective totality, this experience in itself gives us our lived definition of what we call evil. Any person still in their experienced contact with his or her’s native heritage will confirm this.
In an interview with Edward Edinger on Carl Jungs answer to Job, he points to and highlights a section in its last paragraph;
“The reciprocal action between two relatively autonomous factors which compels us when describing and explaining the processes to present, sometimes it is the one and sometimes the other factor who appear as the acting subject.”
Edinger himself has beautifully formulated this in this way;
“Since there are two centers, if that comes into conscious realization, then those two centers must collide; they must have an encounter with one another. That’s what happens when the Ego, which is the little center, has an encounter with the Self, which is the big center.”
What I like so much about these descriptions is that they express that what we are, is this living process between these two entities in our minds. Such as the experiences described by writers, poets, schamans, mystics, holy men and peoples of all kind in their encounters of this since the dawn of time. In its form of an outer reflection of an inner fact Edinger formulates this in his seminar about the defeat of the Ego in the encounter with the Greater personality like this;
“We are confronted with that inner friend or foe, and whether he is our friend or foe depends on our selves. The experience of the Self is always a defeat for the Ego.”
The experience we have of our meeting with this other psychic entity in us is something truly terrible. It completely shatters our personality and forces us down to our knees. It is the raw violence of an unconscious dynamism that roars up from the depths. A manifestation of the absolutely overwhelming power of the Self;
The absolute intensity of this experience, in its crushing onslaught is well described by Antonin Artaud in his ‘The Umbilical Limbo’.
A sharp, burning sensation in my limbs, muscles knotted, as if raw, feeling like glass, brittle, fear, cringing at movement or noise. Unconsciously confused steps, gestures and movement. Willpower forever keyed up to make the simplest gestures, renunciation of simple gestures, stunning, focal fatigue, a sort of exhausting fatigue. Movements have to be reorganised, a sort of dead tiredness, the mind tired by the exercise of the simplest muscular extension, the act of grasping, unconsciously hanging on to something, sustained by continuous willpower. Genetic fatigue, the feeling of dragging one’s body about, the feeling of unbelievable fragility becoming splitting pain, a state of painful numbness, a sort of numbness localised in the skin which does not hinder any movement but changes the sensation within the limbs so that the simple act of standing up straight is achieved only at the cost of a victorious struggle. Probably localised in the skin, but feeling like the radical removal of a limb and offering the mind nothing but tenuous, woolly pictures of limbs, pictures of distant limbs out of place. A sort of inner breakdown in the entire nervous system. Variable giddiness, a sort of oblique dazzling accompanies each effort, a thickening heat band gripping the whole surface of my skull, where heat patches detach themselves and move about piece by piece.Painful inflammation of the skull, gasping nervous tension, the back of the neck doggedly suffering, temples glassy and blotched, head trampled by horses. Here, we should mention the disembodiment of reality, that sort of break, intent it seems on self-proliferation between objects and the feelings they exercise on our mind, the place they belong. This instantaneous classification of objects in the brain cells, not so much in their own logical order but in sensed or emotional order, (which no longer occurs). Objects now have no smell or gender. But their logical order is also sometimes broken, precisely because it lacks an emotional odour. Words rot at unconscious commands from the brain. All words for no matter what type of mental operation, in particular those which trigger off the mind’s most common and active responses.
And in ‘NERVE SCALES’
I really felt you break down the environment around me, I felt you create a void to allow me to progress, making room for an impossible space, for what was then only potentiality within me. For an entire, virtual germination yet to come, drawn into the spot that presented itself. I have often got myself into this impossible, absurd state, so as to try and create thought within me. There are a few of us in these times, who want to cut things down and so create areas for life within us, areas which did not exist and did not seem to belong in space. I have always been struck by the mind’s obstinacy in wanting to think in terms of measurement or areas, in fastening on arbitrary states of things so as to think.Thinking in segments, in crystalloids, so that each form of existence remains fixed in the beginning and thought does not communicate with objects instantaneously and uninterrupted. But this fixation, this immobilisation, this sort of monumentalisation of the soul occurs BEFORE THOUGHT, so to speak. Obviously these are the right conditions for creativity. But I am even more struck by those unrelenting, meteoric illusions which send us predetermined, limited, planned constructions, those clear-cut segments of the soul, as if they were a great plastic page, porous to the rest of reality. Surreality is like a sort of osmotic contraction, a sort of inverted communication. Far from seeing any weakening in control, on the contrary control seems to me more assured, but control which instead of acting remains on guard and prevents contact with day to day reality and allows more subtle and rarified contacts, contacts reduced to a thread which catches fire but never breaks. I picture a soul, worn down and as if changed into brimstone and phosphorous by these contacts, as the only acceptable state of reality. But I do not know what unknown, unnameable clearsightedness furnishes me with their tone and sound and makes me feel them myself. I feel them as a certain insoluble whole, I mean doubt never affects this feeling. As for me, in relation to these disturbing contacts, I am in a state of almost complete immobility. You might look on it as an arrested void, a mental mass buried somewhere, become virtuality. An actor, seen as through crystal. Inspiration in stages. Literature must not show too much. I have only aimed at the mechanism of the soul, I have only transcribed the pain of abortive adjustments. I am really abysmal. Those who believed me capable of consummate suffering, great suffering, sustained, fulsome anguish, anguish which is a mixture of different things, an excited grinding of powers and not a suspended point-yet with lively, uprooting impulses, stemming from the confrontation of my powers with these proffered supreme depths, (the confrontation of great and mighty powers) there is nothing now but unfathomable depths, cold, a halt, -thus those who attributed more life to me, who did not think me so far fallen within myself, who believed me submerged in agonizing noise, violent darkness against which I struggled, -are lost in the shades of man. In sleep, my nerves are taut down my legs. Sleep came from the shifting of belief, the tension relaxed and absurdity irked me. We must understand intelligence is only an enormous contingency, we may lose it, not like a dead madman, but as a person living in life, who feels its pull and inspiration (not of life, that is, but intelligence) . The titillations of intelligence and this brusque reversing of roles. Words half-way to intelligence. The faculty of hindsight, or suddenly railing against our thoughts. This dialogue in thought. Absorbed, breaking off everything. Then suddenly this trickle of water on a volcano, the mind’s slight, slow slip. Finding oneself in a state of extreme shock, enlightened by unreality, with fragments of the real world in a corner of oneself. To think with the minimum of discontinuity, without any traps in our thought, without one of those sudden disappearing tricks my bones are accustomed to as energy transmitters. At times my bones take pleasure in these games, delight in these games, delight in ·these stealthy abductions presided over by my mind, my head. At times I am only at a loss for one word, a simple unimportant little word, to be great, to speak in the tone of the prophets. A corroborating word, an exact word, a subtle word, a word thoroughly steeped in my bones, come out of me to stand at the furthest limits of my being, and which would be nothing to most men. I am the witness, the only witness of my self. This covering of words, those imperceptible whispered changes of thought, this smallest particle of my thought which Iassert was already expressed yet which miscarried. I am the only judge in gauging their scope. · A sort of continuous wasting of the normal level of reality. Inside this crust of skin and bone which is my head there is a constant anguish, not like having a moral dilemma, or like the thought processes of those ridiculously fussy natures whose worries, like leaven, are continually rising to the top, but like a ( decantation) within like the dispossession of my vital substance like the physical and essential loss (I mean loss of essence) of a sense. A powerlessness to fix unconsciously the point of rupture of automatism at any level whatsoever. The difficult part is to find out exactly where one is, to re-establish communication with one’s self. The whole thing lies in a certain flocculation of objects, the gathering of these mental gems about one as yet undiscovered nucleus. Here, then, is what I think of thought: INSPIRATION CERTAINLY EXISTS. And there is a luminous point where all reality is rediscovered, only changed, transformed, by-what ?-a nucleus of the magic use of things. And I believe in mental meteorites, in personal cosmogonies. Do you know what suspended sensitivity is, this sort of tremendous vitality split in two. This necessary, cohesive point to which being no longer rises, this menacing, crushing place.
To call this anxiety. Is to watering it down with words and rationalize it away, which only deprives it of its true value of experience. In Antonin Artaud’s words we do come very close to experience his meeting with himself in his “answer to Job”, similar to what Edward Edinger makes perfectly clear in his seminar on the experience of ‘the encounter with the Greater personality’.
I think of science, and all culture as something which is the experience of the formless which can be differentiated from its origins in chaos, the shapeless original substance of psychic matter. And that we learn to grasp it by realizing that what we call I, that “thing” when it is turned into a symbol of itself reconnects to its original background of formlessness. It becomes what that is. And in this transformation it also mediates a relation to it. But first the physical aspect of it must also be transformed from its focus on procreation to becoming an embodiment of the totality of the constant recurrences of all life. When that transforms into psychic matter we become part of all Nature. To that which surrounds us at all times and in every direction. It is the air we breathe, the water we drink, the very earth that we are made of. The whole physical universe. All that supports us will become an aspect of what before was only limited to the objects of our sexuality. We become Nature and share our beingness with HER, with pure nature as an undressed personification of femininity in its formless aspect. She will become both our physical vessel and a psychic entity of beingness. Through the symbolic I-ness, we return to the source of the world as experience. It is almost like we follow our I-ness in its move into a formless symbolic character of psychic matter. The substance of which all things are made of and comes from, and the reality it now mediates from what it has become. We will find that one side of us is deviant, and that it is with this part we have a relation to ourselves and to its greater totality.
Edward Edinger formulates this experience in the words of psychology; ”The human ego is a part of the self as the objective psyche. It owes it existence to the fact that it has been able to separate itself, and exist like a separate entity, but still a part of it. Its got an organic living connection between the medium that it was born out of, and its own separateness.” Annoyingly precise. But since I have accepted the conclusion that every experience must be formulated into the typology of its time, I have to admit that it makes individuality understandable in its unique sense of a larger context.
This is an experience of something that every individual must consciously and carefully translate into a modern objective context, or they will never separate from the collective mind, and its impulsive unconscious life.
Every fixed ritual becomes a religion once it establishes. And then attention becomes focused on following the prescriptions. In the ritual we may remove the guilt of our original feeling of sin. Of breaking up from this. Since intense affects are manifestations of the Greater Personality we should not take personal responsibility for it. It is an onslaught of instinct, a manifestation of the Self. In the world of psyche, if I commit a wrong against another person I will fear that person’s desire for revenge. And that condition then constellates the Self. If I have wronged myself within–if I have violated my inner center in some serious way—it’s a violation of my sense of totality, which again can arouse the vengeance of the Self against the Ego. (“Edinger”.) It activates a defensive response from the me because it expresses deep feelings non-verbally, and opens us to the possibility of discovering meaning within the situation. This, we cannot connect to through the collective consciousness or its established facts. Because each one of us who has this experience has it uniquely. True rituals contains objective processes, not fixed maps of reality. These processes creates a drama within for us to enable and realise the underlying structures of behavior when it is time for us to do so. To leave behind our fixed and automated behavior to meet the forces behind them. Most social rituals, and religious views are nothing more than meaningless habits that sacrifice individuality. These rituals are empty when we participate in them without any meaningful connection to the values they express, or when we approach them without drawing upon the interioror energies involved. When we do, this is how we transform psychological processes into culture. We first establish our connection to what the australian aboriginal call the dreaming, and dramatize its content through a physical performance. We then turn them into social habits. In this way new processes forces itself onto the world from its origin behind the world. Of course I understand that this is just words, and they are useless by themselves. But its my way of putting my experiences into context. I am also human, and objectively speaking, I think that what I am an experience of in my Nature, is also something that is part of all humanity. We all have to do an outer reflection of inner facts, and it needs an individual mind to be recognized.
What I understand now is that all forms of psychology are basically a study of the processes behind our rituals, and how they make us behave, both individually and transpersonally, when they are raised, and constantly renewed in the relationship we have to our inner life and how we interact with nature and our culture.
There is a level of mind where matter and the mind interpenetrate and becomes a subtle body or energy. It is as if we experience a communion with the earth as a living entity, and that our psyche has an earthly aspect that influences us. In this direct expression of the earth on the mind we have a psychological experience of the body as as matter. And in that sense it becomes non-local. It has no locality in time, and in itself it does not depend on any specific physical presence anywhere, its reality is experienced everywhere. It is eternal. All natural processes affect us personally here regardless of our ego. This is the innermost of physical existence, the past, the present and the future, where we find our true relation to the body we share with earth.
My true experience of the body comes from this psychological entity traditionally called soul. It is where I balance my existence and its relation to nature, where my physicality resides. Here is my relation to the world. How I perceive it. It is all pure Nature. From this experience I am called to act in relation to what is in it. To life. It is where my other being creates an outer reflection of an inner fact. The nature of that experience I call soul is what makes life flow from this other being into my world. It is where my raw Nature becomes my personal and human acts of cultivation. I think it is in these processes we can find the ongoing creation of cultural history of the human race. But most importantly, each individual has his own unique experience of this. This is a common pattern. Beautifully and annoyingly summed up by Edward Edinger like this; We have a psychological encounter where we experience our true Nature within; And that involves a suffering because it activates our self as something individually separate from the collective; there’s also our perseverance, because we have to stand up for our sense of beingness; and last there’s a revelation where the onslaught of instinct becomes a new living relation to how we experience life. It is almost like a living pattern of existence put to words. Disgusting in its rationality, because of how far this is from being respected in our time, but possible to accept as an absolute form of beingness in the living experiences of our individuality.
Our relation to the greater part of ourselves is not religion. It may look like it. But it is not. But it is an integral part of the inviolable in every human, and in all life. This was first formulated in the mental maturation process that traditional people encountered in the confrontation between the power of their own nature and the nature that surrounded them. That experience now comes back to us in the form of their notions that we transform into the current world of the dominant collective typology. We transfer and reformulate their images and symbolic structures of wholeness into objective facts. Our language itself, our attitude and its extremes in alphabetism, show in an exaggerated way how frightening a confrontation with these forces can be. The traditions of the introverted intuitive’s experiences and explorations of the mind are now being recast into the concepts and orientation of todays type, the collectively oriented extraverted sensation. Which means that the present collective consciousness relation between the individual ego and the self is now reformulated using traditional structures and images. This earlier mind, and its collective thinking, communicated their experiences in religious and metaphysical concepts. To me, it seems that we are living in a typological transformation into a new concept of our relationship to the eternal image of our inner self that traditional people first communicated to us. This does not mean that we have to mould our selves into this present type, or its attitude if its not ours. But it is certaintly beneficial to know about its preferences and how it expresses itself since we are born into it.
Once again, I am in debt to Edward Edinger for making this perfectly clear to me.
The dominant view of society on the societal traditions that we usually call “primitive”, is usually based on a perspective that mainly consists in our own lost connection to an inner original whole. It is our own broken inner experience of pure nature both inside and outside us. But our raw Nature is that life, it is nourishment, support, and strength. From within we are connected to the sense that it surrounds us at all times and in every direction. It is the air we breathe, the water. The earth that nourish us. It is the whole physical universe that supports us. Our experience of this is the whole world in a divine like closeness to the essence of femininity. This is our other half and the physical vessel of our wholeness. It is in this kind of ”primitive” awareness many people in traditional cultures experience their rebirth. And their relation to an intermediary or a second Greater personality. To our self. Where wholeness is not percieved as dogmatic structures of an imposed totality but a personal relation to all life. Inside of us we are born psychologically by this experience. It gives birth to a new connection to our self, and a genuine sense of community with all Nature. It is what really makes us human. To call this ”primitive” is a transference of ones own broken connection to this wholeness, because it is not something that can be approached or grasped with a rational mindset. It is about our relation to experience. But if we choose to describe our perspective on primitivity as the lack of a relation to its sense of wholeness, i think we are also close to its opposite which is the absence of maturity. It is about the maturation process to our inner self and its totality. And a person’s or society’s relation to this can always be seen in how it treats its indigenous people.
The greatest misconception between the western and the traditional mind is in how it relates to the experience of beingness. From a traditional perspective, all Nature, both within and without is processed as the experience of how everything is related to our inner maturing. Meaning, not space and time, connects all things. In the western world, people are taught to separate themselves from this kind of experience, and to deal with the mind exclusively as an external fact. It’s like a typological mismatch. The extraverted sensation of the Western mind, meets the polar opposite of the introverted intuition of the traditional mind. So in this Western or modern mind, the psychic experiences that our body conveys are cut off from its connection to the physical processes in their relation to nature. Hence the loss of the connection to our beingness that will relate us to an inner sense of embodiment, where our Nature will give birth to the reality that there are two entities in the Psyche. In a traditional sense they must have an encounter with one another. The Ego, which is the small center, has to have an encounter with the Greater one for life to have any kind of meaning, that is, a relation to the big center that always flows into the smaller Ego. Through the spontaneous act of Nature by our instincts, this experience will give birth to the absolute need for the traditional mind to approximate them psychologically to one another. They are taught to take pride in their perseverance to meet and endure this encounter, and to defend the beingness of their human Nature in relation to the onslaught of this Greater personality. To find their own personal connection to it. The western mind often never really come to this approximation. There is a collision between them, but no conscious realization of what this experience may hold for it. Obviously, in this way, i have my own experience of mismatch to explore with the collective mind.
Life really made quite a setup for me yesterday after having thought for quite some time about the overlapping representatives I always create of my self outside of me, of the entity I have within so perfectly described by Edward Edinger. It came to its full realisation in a long drive that took a day with my son in law. As Edinger pointed out, the second center is this other being, or the other person within ourselves. He formulated it like this; “It’s the representation of a friendship between two men, which is simply the outer reflection of an inner fact.” Similarly, I believe that this is what women do with the processes they share in their experience of Nature between them. The other person within ourselves reveals itself in the relationship we have to Nature herself. What became so obvious to me was that during our drive, I was doing much of the talk. But I also realized, that in spite of notizing him having trouble following me, I was still doing an outer reflection on the subjects at hand with my inner personality. I just had to try to make this Greater life flow into the life of which I was an outer reflection of. And I used my son in law for this. Now afterwards, I understand that it was a setup, it was one of these arrangements that life gives us so that we can access, and grasp some of its deeper significance. I must try to find myself another confinement, or vessel for the flow of this experience. I should not have to burden him or anyone else with these aspects of my own being.
It is like one must first truly realize that our beingness is nature itself, and as such that we are an extension of mother earth, which we are part of as its supreme being experienced as an outer reflection of an inner fact. Or we will experience her in her aspects of rage. She is the embodiment of our nature, and our physical vessel. If we accept her, our meeting with her will constellate, and give birth to the awareness of another person maturing within us. A transcendent entity that is larger than the ego. That is, the relationship we have to that inner friend of whom Nature herself would like to change us. She will make us aware of, that there is something more to guilt and vengeance beyond her in that transpersonal center of the Psyche. To that other part of us within. If I violate this inner person, it’s a violation of my relation to the order of my human sense of totality. Which will arouse its vengeance against my ego. I will experience that as guilt, or as an abusive oppression, a vengeance from an entity that is really coming from within. It is about this wholeness of life. That intense affect of an inner emergence. Anger, guilt, and anxiety are all direct ways in which we experience a defeat in our present attitude to the violence from this extremely superior invasive force that discharge itself in us. In our human reality. We learn about it in the transference of our defences to the physical world. This is also how we come to understand it internally.
This text is my reflection on a seminar held by Edward Edinger entitled: Encounters with the Greater personality. I am forever greatly in debt to him for what this made perfectly clear in me.
It is almost painful to see how Donald Trump is crawling under the weight of the inferiority he senses in his meeting with himself. And how he unknowingly tries to defend himself from the pressure he experience from it. He is constantly trying to divert himself through others from the criticism erupting from inside of him, and his relation to the transpersonal center of his mind in front of everyone, and just about the whole world. But since he doesn’t recognise the true source of this criticism as coming from within himself, he acts it out, and try to hide it from himself by transference.
What makes it so painful at times is that we are all like him. We can all identify with this hair-rising avoidance of an humbling confrontation with the maturing reflection of an inner fact suddenly appearing inside us, trying to correct our present attitude. Its quite a learning experience to listen to. But in Trumps case, it is constantly on the verge of being morbid.
..”the onslaught of instinct becomes an experience of ‘the greater personality’.”
– Edward Edinger
I use this quote because it shows in such a good way how psychology today is in itself a “meaningful coincidence” between an inner situation and an external event, and that there are coincidences that are stretched further than a single lifetime. Meaning now occurs in our present inner understanding of the mental flow of images that has arisen from a previous meeting between the collective consciousness and the underlying reality of the cosmic mind. These experiences and events have not been immediately connected to any visible causes because of the timespan involved. In the cosmic totality, everything happens simultaneously. Coincidences are always direct. But for the collective consciousness to pick it upp as such, it needs a single mind. A consciousness that can join them together. Without the scale of the cosmic reality, the experience is too large for it to be able to perceive that there is a relation outside the observer’s field of perception, so it will only be verifiable much later. And the connection is lost in time. But we can regain it when “the onslaught of instincts becomes an experience of the greater personality”. Which I think is slowly happening right now. This is how I interpret my experience of it, and how it relates to our contemporary collective consciousness right now.
Thought forms and images is the preferred state of our inner life. Individual minds anywhere experience this in our cosmic mind as energy waves containing information that is generated from their state of virtual potentiality. It means that our individual experience of this universality of mind can exist either as an experience of an individual consciousness, or as pure form. Thought forms and images have no conceivable locality in the cosmic mind, but they have its potential as an emanation out of a non-empirical cosmic background which contains the future empirical possibilities of an individual consciousness. Therefore we can only exist in a bodily state or descend into a virtual state. This virtual state is the cosmic realm of energetic non-material reality behind consciousness. Behind our actuality of visible phenomena, and the ”things” that surface of this hidden, invisible and non-empirical domain that doesn’t consist of any material structures, but of forms of consciousness dormant in this non local potentiality of an every when. I think that the visible world is something like the emanated visibility of it. While the hidden part is the unknown state of any consciousness in its purest form. When a consciousness appear it acts as a vessel of thoughts and images, for the cosmic mind that we think of as the material structures and events in the external world.
I think there is more to syncronicity, or the experience of random acasual happenings of meaningful connections in the psychology of kosmos, and its non-local events of wholeness acting in an evolutionary sense in what we think are random coincidents, than just unusual occurrences in the present moment. We are decieved by time. If we strech the timespan further between events and make them much longer than our ability to connect them, like a single lifetime, or multiple generations, we tend to disregard them as occurences of synchronicity. As something that happens independently of time. Or as a potentiality of a consciousness appearing out of a background wholeness evolving in the realm of an individual mind in any timeframe. Our consciousness as a form of that wholeness senses its loss of locality, and becomes part of this psychology of space in the form of a consciousness that is acting everywhere, both in a past, our present and in the future, and we interpret two or more different events as they are separated, but curiously appearing in the same moment of time. In reality they are individually experienced forms of this background wholeness, appearing not only as the same form of non-locality, but also as a cosmic property from which the form we want to call consciousness derives. It is this background property of consciousness that appears within us, in different versions of collective consiousness, but always in its own eternal presence, here and now.
How I orient myself in the world is basically my relationship to the energies that contains the vibrational patterns of our different states of mind. These states are related to my inner self, or to its inner body of knowledge that is experienced by the continous reflection on the dynamics of life. It is this connection that develops my personal relation to the collective consciousness. It is also this information that is expressed to me personally from this field of potentiality, and then transmitted to me in the energy of having a connection to a person or situation. It is always accompanied by some form of information. In this sense we are all presented with a kind of generic knowledge of potentiality. Of information we then apply to the collective consciousness when we insert it into the body of the physical world, and join it with our nature. This information is provided personally, again and again, until it is completely digested. If it is ignored, we sense a loss of meaning, of repeating ourselves. By changing what we habitually call thinking, to a question that is actually a kind of prayer, and our way of listening to this “field of potentiality”, we shift our “attention” to the vibrational patterns of being. We tap into a field of information beyond consciousness, containing the patterns that is given by the frequency of another way of orientation. We relate ourselves back to the experience of unanimousness, and the realization that we are one in our self, to where our consciousness is connected to its universal “cosmic” properties, and its true origin from behind life.
I BELIEVE IN INDIVIDUAL MAN HIMSELF
I believe in individual man himself,
in him who walks by himself,
not doglike following his scent,
not wolflike fleeing before man’s scent:
at once man and anti-man.
Come to our own communion?
Flee the over and the outer way:
Whatever is cattle in others is cattle also in you.
Walk the wide and inner way:
What is bottom in you is bottom also in them.
Hard to get used to oneself.
Hard to break oneself of oneself.
The one who does that shall never be cast out.
The one who does that shall forever be in unanimousness.
The impractical is the only practical
in the long run.
Ideas and theories are always going to be falsified because the predictions made on them are not borne out of the source of observations only. But also on our impressions of them. An idea, a theory or hypothesis is therefore always going to be what we imagine about our observations. We have to assume that all life somehow originates from beyond our imagination. And objectively acknowledge that nature consist of a content based not only on our imagination, but that it also depends on a source outside of it, and it is by imagination we try to access the knowledge about what it is. So our consciousness will always be about how we can cultivate our imagination. How we look at what appears between our impressions and our actions. Because the most important feature of objective reality seems to be that it is imagined. And if you listen carefully, that is what is studied in math. In theoretical physics. In chemistry and biology. In psychology, philosophy and the social sciences. In art litterature and poetry. In law we try to regulate what is acceptable about it. In the medical world how it effects us. We use them to work with and process our imagination.
I like the non personified concept of our consciousness as a derived cosmic property from the substance and records of an akashic field. It blends so well with the experience of the great unknown in traditional beliefs as a causal field of potentiality outside time where consciousness is divided into limited space and endless space. And that we are related there with each other, with nature, and with the cosmos. That it is what contains the constant inflow of information, a derived consciousness individually present throughout space and time as a cosmic experience in everyone of us at the same time everywhere. That it is a lived experience of the imperceptible records of potentiality we re-descend to when life ends. A consciousness which conserves and conveys all information in a unified field of life and existance as a materialized reflection of its reality.
I have always had rituals. Or personal sessions with nature created by nature itself. Which is natures own staged settings for its communication with me. In them, there is a kind of ceremonial for the flow of my connections to the hidden sources of meaning behind the knowledge in my continuous experiences. It is to keep them open when they appear, and to be able to work with them, to cultivate their information. Because of their mingling of my senses I cannot grasp their original or raw content immediatley. So I have this practice of acting as a psychosynthetical vessel for these moments where another kind of clear thought is expressed by nature, and in which my experiences are something like an imagined part of that existence. I try not to separate out any specific disciplines of knowledge from my relation to these moments of emergent meaning, since it is just life as it appears to me. This is something I have wondered about with people around me my entire life. Because most people like to imagine the same things about it over and over, and just follow the current established thought patterns. They are still going through the same primordial rituals though, but without the original connections to its sources. This collective source of consciousness then forces us to separate ourself from how we get to know things, and we lose our personal ability to orient ourselves in reality. To something we know more about from within than from any of our usual introjected convictions or collective beliefs. Rituals are there within us to verify and establish our personal connections to the sources of life. They want us to create personal settings for them. These processes or ceremonies, are what we must have in order to keep them up for as long as we can in order for them to express their intention. It is a dialog we have with our genetic heritage. They are our working knowledge with reality.
For a long time I have observed that what I unconsciously wanted to see of myself has been transmitted to others and that this now constantly reflects my reality in a way that exposes me to myself and makes me feel completely naked. Pulling back those strings also reinforces the psychic space I share with others in a way that makes it feel somewhat unfamiliar and new to me. I am so used to fill it out with myself only, being the only one there who inhabit it, that this space emotionally now reveals to me what I see in others of what should be my own relation to myself. I also cannot help but notice what the true reality of our relations look like in relation to that shared space of psychic life, instead of trying to control or dominate it through other people. I can no longer connect with others in a habitual way as they obviously do not have the same connections as I have to the forces that works in me. They are walking their path of life alone with the forces that act in the space of what they call beingness. Their path is not mine. And what is formulated for me in my space is not theirs. I have yet to find a likeness to mine. I have some clues. But for now, I just have to stop confusing mine with others.
Not everything that happens in our consciousness is personal. Some of what is shown to us evidently comes as personal instructions. But there are also instructions given to us as human beings. There is a voice given to us, unique to everyone. By not recognising it within ourselves, we come to lack the opportunity to confirm it in others. This creates a vicious circle of abuse where we try to dominate and control other people. It hides us from each other and the daily mystery of a personal life together on a psychic scale. Just as “Mother” nature gives us our deepest personal experience of being, she is also a shared experience. Everyone have this sense of her presence in a beautiful sunset. And the laws of her shared power and energy is in us all when our bodies are involved in the experiences given by her. With our bodies we are her. We are that nature. She embodies the physical and moral laws of being there, in that place between our impressions and our actions and in a sense of real presence in the world. Which is between this mentor, his incursions and the acceptance of her in our lives. Their union also gives birth to an impulsive, personally experienced, strong willed daughter of nature with powerful instincts and moral values. But still, most people believe that they alone are everything displayed in their consciousness, and since they have never learned to listen to the source’s beyond it, they must fill in the void that arises with new content from the collective consciousness continuously. This will create an eerie sense of absence and is what is constantly transmitted from generation to generation by our fathers. We learn from them how to handle this as mere distractions, and what we should accept in ourselves. How to adapt to their collective consciousness. It is also the reason why being can be seen as something deeply painful and scary. Something we must expel from our experiences because it frightens them. Here is a big difference with traditional thinking and the ”modern” mind. Because instructions that are experienced in a personal way are respected as such traditionally. They are respected as something that must be thought of and handled personally, alone. The general instructions that occur are given to people as a whole. They are not treated as something that can be bought or sold as a commodity. Or held on to, except as part of the constant renewal of the accumulated knowledge of psychic experiences common to all. They are not intended to be kept away from others since they come from a source shared by everyone in our beingness. So the laws of nature that we experience from within do not just seem to lead us in a personal way, but at the same time, it seems that nature uses our consciousness as a canvas for our impressions, and for our creative ability to formulate both a shared, and a unique experience of the world. To me in that sense, science and psychology share the same source. But from different perspectives. One from within and one from without. But it is all the same.
The difference between christian-ism and a more down to earth relation to our nature is the alphabetism of christianity. It talks about “another world”. But that world, the same as with the nature of this world, can really take care of itself without that. It doesn’t have to be regulated in words. It is a personal relation to experience in any world, and in that sense it doesn’t have to be manipulated in any individual or preconcieved way by “religion”. You have an experience and a communion with nature. With the essence of reality. Something that permeates all creation. It is something we are exposed to all the time. One just have to go outside and listen to it.
The attitude of the collective consciousness that we, our politicians and our media must face in our actions is that we try to provide people around us with something different from what they already have within themselves. It is not up to us or anyone else to replace what has already been in people since the beginning of humanity with something else. There is already something to develop there that we are trying to understand the importance of, as this constantly tells us something about ourselves and our lives. The real problem is that people do not take this internal relationship and what it communicates seriously. I am talking about reflection as a cosmic property in its own right. Not only in relation to consciousness but also as something from beyond consciousness. Something we commonly identify as opinions and then confuse with reflection. Reflection is an act of awareness, a listening to the personal teachings that is using our life, and everything that occurs or happens in it as a means of giving instructions. This is a solitary thing. Something between me, my interiority, and my life. So no one should in any way interfere or meddle with the inner experience of someone else’s relation to the greater perspective of personality that comes to us from between our impulses and our actions. With our communion to the personal unseen. And since this relationship is deeply personal, and only exists for that person when he is exposed to the powers of his existence through reflection, no one should try to force himself to come in between this and him or her. If we do, our inner life will only become a contradiction in terms. This is a personal thing not be formulated in creeds, or forced upon anyone who is, or is trying to get in touch with the interior relations of his life. Its good though to have someone close who really knows whats going on. Because from time to time it is extremely demanding to confront it. Not least to keep our “opinions” to ourselves.
Not too many people around me really know what it is like to live within a close relation to the beingness of the great grandmother being who is the mother of all our mothers, or with the original relationship to the primordial reflective intelligence of all our grandfathers father. They constantly appear in the empirical world and act in it. The entire visible world is an emanation out of their non-empirical psychic background. It is in their domain of reality that our consciousness becomes a cosmic property. I think this experience can be described as how we feel after we have been initiated.
Damn you all for what this uniformity in our collective consciousness’s way of looking at existence downgrades my personal interaction with myself. This is what makes me feel cramped, forced and unpleasant. It is what creates a high tension and an forced temperament in me. But really, you have to forgive me for that, I’m just doing everything i can, trying to defend my inner voice from being completely deprived of its own living reality inside of me. I am just not you, and I never will be.
I must admit that I don’t have much appreciation for academical psychology. For me, neuropsychology that deals with the physicality of the human mind has a greater merit to me than the current statistical and historical approach of academic research. But none of them are really taking into account the immediate personal experience of our human reality here and now. All life, in every moment, is really my impressions of that experience. And since everything around it unwittingly tries to make it a collective one, exclusively focused only on the consciousness of the collective individuality in past tense, my nature in the form of my beingness have resisted the temptation of such an unbalanced one-sidedness. It is in the collective consciousness that we store all the imagination our psyche transforms into culture and science. And of course, I realize that this one-sided focus on the collective consciousness that affects the view of how we try to understand ourselves is quite natural because we, as individuals are all part of the knowledge stored in it. After all, it is what becomes our personal relation to cultural life within our lifetime. But it does not take into account the presences of the existential information we get out of a variety of different internal events and its forces that has accumulated within our minds over a longer timespan than a single generation. Which is what intervenes in our personal reality outside of the views of the collective consciousness and of the academic world. It is against this one-sidedness my nature resists.
Strange things begin to emerge in a society if we idolize the collective consciousness in the form of a person, a movement or an ideal, and then create doctrins or symbols out of it. We will then submit to this person, or the “cause” of a movement, and then ignore the impressions and impulses that do not fit into the now idealized narrower form of what the content of our collective consciousness really is. We abandon our natural instinct to make personal reflections of our experiences, and end up in a rational jumble of academical contradictions. Our access to moral considerations based on what life is, becomes second to making assumptions about perceptions of what it should be like. True reality loses its contact with direct experience and we become stifled with theoretical ”issues”. We then hide most of our connections to the collective consciousness in these types of relationships to emphasize our need to control others. This is a distorted and sadistic picture of the relationship we have with the original psychic energy in all our forms of fathers. I think much of the abuse of people’s trust we see in all leadership around us, from the personal to the collective, originates from this. It is this idolizing identification that enables us to create our dictators, our despots, and the grandiosity we sense in our ”knowledgable” tyrants. All these suddenly appearing movements in media, or political causes also emerges out of this. We leave it to these ”happenings” to decide something that must grow out of our individual relationship to ourselves. Because in the end, we are all alone in our individual reflections of the collective consciousness that will shape the minds of our future.
Yesterday I took a hike and went into the forest surrounding the place where I live. I do this on a regular basis. Usually I have a deep sense of being in a physical symbiosis with nature when I am out on these walkabouts of solitude. But this time, I felt distressed. I had a hard time relaxing. To find the frequency that gives me a clear sense of place. So I started to do what I always do. To listen. This uneasiness was really causing me a discomfort, not in anyway related to where I was. And it dawned on me. This was the part of me that I used to connect to for getting things done. A kind of heroic focusing on achievement. It had nothing to do with my present beingness. My hiking trip. This part of me was more of an “old” part. Not something that I connect to and use today. It was this heroic feeling of making a cause out of an impression that consumes you when you are young. Something one projects into someone or something else when you where in need of its energy to focus on what you where doing, and bring that to its completion. But now it was really causing me a great discomfort, and stressed me up. I really felt bad. But I started to listen in on what it was doing, and I calmed down a bit. It was definetely something I brought with me. It was like a “person” that was forced on to me from the outside, and it linked me up with this energy within me which I was very familiar with from my past. But now it was just causing me a lot of distress. I really felt that I had to defend myself from its intrusion. And since I brought it with me, i concluded it must have been triggered by something beyond me. So by having a kind of dialog with it, I began to understand his intentions. He was trying to turn my hike into an “achievement”, a cause. As he always did with everything when I was younger. But in my current situation, I had no need for that. So, why did he appear to me at this moment? The answer emerged into my mind. When I am not in my “being” spending time on my own, with myself in close relation to nature. I am connected to this collective individuality. And that individuality comes from the mind of my relation to the collective consciousness in part transferred over to me by my father, and by other men. It is what I identified to and related to about him. It was his relation to his collective individuality that I was relating to now in the woods. It was his introjected aspects of a collective consciousness and its behavioural patterns that was projected on me, which I brought with me into the woods. And now this ”personality” of the collective was badgering me, it wanted to push me forward. To make me heroic and turn my beingness into a deed, and my impressions into an action of achievement. But here I was, alone in the woods. There was no need of any such thing. I started to calm down and come to, relating to where i was, and resettle myself in my being. I realised that this was something I have carried around inside for a very long time. It was making me feel cornered, frustrated and tempered in a lot of situations. It was an act, something I was suppose to be with others, outside of my being. This, I could not submit to. It is not what I am, and certainly not what I should be out here in the woods. This collective consciousness of our parents that we learn to relate to as our psychosynthetical or psychological “fathers”, do not create a solid relation for us to distinguish our impressions from our actions today. Many of us has lost the ancestral relation to that kind of mindset. We do not learn from old people by example how to find distinctions within ourselves, to personal relations of that kind on our own, to this form of solitude, and to the individual beingness we learn by our mothers connected to earth. Instead their needs to conform will turn us into collective beings outside of our own reality without a genuine physical relation to nature. We end up in a lifelong extension to their conformity, and in a personal emptiness of eternal achievements leading us nowhere. Just to show what we are good for. We act on every impression, on every idea. And while we turn them into words, we also turn them into “things”. But out here in the woods, there is nothing of that, there is only the knowledge of reflection created between the impression and the act. And everything instead turns into an “act” of listening. What I really learned out here in the forest today was, from where our mental stress today actually originates.
The way I currently understand public opinion is what I think Freuds super-ego refer to, and also what Emilé Durkheim meant with a collective consciousness. Together, they both correspond to how I visualize what the overall beliefs and morals of the “general public” are. Which I think is the source and creator of the mindset of the collective individual, and his or hers projected narcissism. It is the loss of ourselves as a transferred adaptation to society through the collective consciousness of our parents. Which in turn restricts us to a collective agreement on what kind of spontaneous imagination we allow ourselves to have. This creates an attitude that completely obstructs us from an access to the reality of our being, and without this, there can be no moral. Because there is no being, no shared body of nature for us to experience, and certainly no shared immediacy of our own nature to the spontaneous acts of our world that make us related to all life in a psycho synthetical way. My consciousness gets split into two halfs. One with this collective consciousness which i have always wondered about. How do I relate to that “content”? The other part is our shared nature where the reality of my being are. But our crowd-mentality of today is not set-up to include that, and our collective individuality do not provide us with any space for our nature to come into being, to emerge into beingness. So there is no way for people to become humans. While there is nothing of this kind today in our collective consciousness that can act as a container for the space we need to be able to relate back to, to the intensity of our living nature, we just let our frustration mix itself up with others over this loss, and then we tear each other and the world apart.
Most leading officials in our governments today acts as martyrs and avoids responding as humans to questions about the actual reality of the people they are ment to serve. They pretend to suffer from their cause, and then beg people to vote for them, to end their sufferings, just so they can legitimize their underlying projected narcissism. Like them we think we have to formalise our relations, and disconnect from our beingness. This is what happens when we, like them, are too committed to a cause, forgetting about the true nature of our being in relation to our imagination and the outside world.
To experience something other in oneself is more to me than just a personal involvement in a force that we have avoided in our contemporary limitations of established and accepted personal functionality. There’s much more beyond that. Any individuality, mine in particular, in itself always questions the dominant attitude of a society’s relation to place. Because we are so accustomed to pairing personal growth with a constant piling up of known facts, and its thinking on how to defend this chosen stack of what we know from what we may have missed, that we have forgot how to participate in the interiority of human experience. We blaime others for what we have missed. For being foreign to us, having an imagination or a mindset outside of our own. I agree to that we differ from each other in what we imagine, but not in what their underlying processes are. If that were the case it would not be possible to share anything with anyone else. Thats why we are so connected to everything. And thats why our nature is so deeply connected to place.
The I-ness of the world separates us from the reality of beingness. Of our relations to it. Since the content of consciousness formulates our “wordview”, it becomes confused with distance. But consciousness is a space which can only be expressed in symbolic order and form. Today it is primarily used as our inner I-ness of a collective identity, we identify it with our “model” child within, and its projected narcissism. In this way we only learn to confirm what is, to name “things” and tear ourselves apart in a madness of antinomies. We grow up to “think”, and create spatial orders of things. But we exclude the order of our interior experiences of the world which can only be expressed by our imagination outside of time. Our world is an imagined place, and we refer to it with a narrative which directly relates us to being. Consciousness is expressing itself in this narrative, in the symbolic content of its own order. It is not created by our superficial I-ness. Consciousness relates to our knowledge of beingness, apart from I-ness and its existence. Being, runs as a resonance in the personal relationship we have of space-time, and its timeless origin that constantly flows into our consciousness, thus creating this direct knowledge of an appearence in all “things”. It is individual existence in itself. In the past, present and future. It is also the explanation of existence. It is our connection to the “between”. To our reality, physicalized and grounded in the streams of raw nature, and in the actual moment of an existence in beingness as place. By this I-ness, we obscure the personal experience of “knowledge”, and turn everyone into an alphabetic structure of history where we are separated from our internal experience. From here and now, and the order of forms created by an energy that is transmitted into consciousness, where it is always held in symbolic integration to the visible world. A world which is shared by all beings, but not by the isolation I-ness creates of itself in consciousness. It is an invasive I-world mostly determined by someone elses structures. This view kind of dissolves the sharp boundary rationality maintains between what we refer to as nature and as culture. But I see nature as unlimited in its manifestation, as containing mentors and guides, in all its forms of energi.
If we deny ourselves contact with our own nature’s undeveloped, and unfiltered expectations, as they first appear in us and become separated from us in the form of our projected non-reflecting narcissism, which we unsuspectingly place on the world. How can we blame others for their ignorance in doing the same? For their inability to face the reality of that “child” that we cannot face within our own being.
Is this not how we end up in an endless chain of frustration where we blame each other and our society, and were we just get lost in our collective individualism and leave it to the world to suffer from our ignorance.
Is it ever our own responsibility to really deal with this?
Our present world is dependent on how we relate to its “imaginary” expectations. Because it is our own abandoned voice that we hear when we listen to people like John Trudell and Greta Thunberg.
So when we come to choose who will lead us, that choice will then determine how we want to shape our contemporary societies. In what collective surrounding we want to place the expectations of our interior “child”, or being. People in the West suffer greatly from a shortage of an awareness of this exprience in its leadership. Our leaders are still trying to produce this imaginary “child” through words. By a thinking that our impressions and actions are the same. And more and more people have begun to turn against this lack of facing true reality. They have become reluctant to place themselves in the hands of words and ideas instead of actual community service. Anyway, whatever the the choices ahead that are made on the road by us when guiding this “child” as individuals, I’m not too optimistic about where we’re actually going, because most people seems completely oblivious to this.
I believe that psychosynthesis must be the perfect contemporary term for religion today. I mean, it just fits in perfectly. And I mean it just as an application of a unifying concept to the content of the intense and self-organizing experiences we have that goes beyond our one-sidedness to exclusively define ourselves as individuals based on how we value ourselves in our physical context.
It almost transforms itself into a definition of spirituality, which is why it makes it such a good and useful choice to begin with for this purpose.
Every person essentially exists eternally in a timeless realm between two worlds. This eternal part existed there before the life of the individual begun, and continues to exist when the physical life of the individual ends. It is the being of us that is part of the flow of life itself, and it is this part we share with all life. In this way we become connected to everything. It is what we are made of. Thats why people with an indigenous or traditional background have such a respect for life. They constantly acknowledge and share this middle realm in the present physical world. They know we are all part of it. That we live in a world which essence makes everything primarily “interiority related”, and that this has its own inherent context. In this sense, everything we can really say about this experience is expressed by our imagination. And the way we choose to depict it is how we try to make it human to enter life and come into being. This is how we try to find our relation to the “soul” of the world.
I am brought up with a belief that our innermost nature and our true being appears as forms, and that these forms appear as physical structures of thoughtlike concepts in our mind, not as things that separate us from them, but as forms of energy that we are a part of as much as they are part of us. These animated forms are not words, like I am not a word. They are the living reality beyond words. Words do not create our experiences. They turn them into things. By words we think we create the world anew, but the world was already there, right in front of us, and it is still going to be right there regardless of the words and ideas we use to separate us from our experiences of it. It is what we are. With words we transform the world and ourselves into different kind of ”things”. To objects instead of beings. This is what characterizes the view we have of our nature, and of people in our society today. Christianity has caused great harm with this. Not just to people in the north by introducing this “wordview” as a replacement for what already existed there. It is one of the reasons that people suffer from the sickness of alphabetism, and the belief that we may force ourselves into an existence by words instead of our sharing of beingness.
My stepdaughter’s four-year-old is used by the oldest boys at preschool to express what they have to suppress in the child they now grow up from. This is quite ”normal”. They are playing with what they experience as unacceptable behavior in their family/community through him. Making him act out or say things that they have learned to surpress because it has nowhere else to go, and he is among the youngest and is still credulous. He has not yet developed a mental container for his inner processes. And the older boys are trying to separate out what they can’t retain in themselves. In this way he will learn that the world is at least partially evil and can be deceptive as he grows up. I think this is also how we create our ”blaimers” or scapegoats. Our family conditions will play a decisive role in what path he, and of course, all of us takes from there. If he identifies with the role they give him, he will only see his value in what the family/community finds unacceptable. Or he may choose to use others for what he does not accept in himself as the other boys do and thus completely submit to the moral norm of the family/society to become like them, and then blame others for what he had to surpress in himself for psychic balance. Starting this eternal cycle of abuse all over again where the connection to the continuous developement of interiority gets lost. I consider it especially fortunate if he chooses a third path. That he retains the belief in how he expresses himself, not through someone else, and not to fulfill someone else’s need for him to carry what they regard as unacceptable. But by having a sense of trust in what he is, and really feel secure in how he transform his nature into culture, regardless of the moral norms it adheres to.
The lost space we have within is most clearly visible today in our expectations of individual athletes and competing teams. It is also the driving force behind our politicians and their followers. Our repressed and affective child, or being, which we are a duplicate of, acts on our behalf as if the athlete does what he do for him, not because of an appreciation of what the athlete actually do for his own sake. All teams’ support culture is based on this child’s expectations of the team in the same way as if the team is competing for them. This is the case in politics as well. This child have expectations on how politicians compete with their convictions. But beyond the party line’s ideology they are all actually just officials in a position they have temporarily been assigned to, to lead important community services. They are there for everyone else. Regardless of what personal ideology or beliefs thay have. Journalism highlights this very clearly. But unattended, this child will make us think that our impressions and actions are the same. That other people or “beings” do not exist. Just our expectations of them.