the confrontation with our inner conversation

Writing is one creative outlet for psychic inspiration. To let go of, and get close to its spontaneous powers. By formulating it in writing, painting, music or some artform gives us a way to both take part in them and reflect on them while they occur. If we don’t do it, we are going to feel bad about ourselves, as if we are not paying attention to life itself as it happens to us. We would start having a feeling of disorientation, of not being authentic, or true to ourselves. Because we turn what something is in itself when it occurs to our senses into something else outside of them. We do not engage in what it is to us. Another side to this would be that when we become euphoric and compulsively act our inspiration out in the world, we may feel anxiety and guilt for having these experiences, and then have periods of withdrawal and reflection trying to figure out what just happened to us. What it is that made us act in the way we did. Because we have a sense of that we are not ourselves but intoxicated and engulfed by euphoria, as being humans exposed to the powers of nature is something unnatural. But that is often how we interact with our lost connection to the conversation we have with ourself. Unknowingly we mix them up. At first we do it as the child who once got interrupted in this conversation by the development of the self-image it adapted to of a society that has lost the importance of individual relationships to the psychic person that these inner powers is related to. In the shape of an inner child we will meet the good or evil sense of the mother and the good or evil father in the experience of having felt her embrace or emotional rejection and independence. His bullying authority, self-preoccupation or instructive and active support of the sources that influence us from behind our egos’s and how we imagine that. Together they form our link between our inner primordial images, their forms and the society or community for which they are exponents. To grow in one way or the other, we have to face both experiences of them. Because we have abandoned our inner being, and it is still undeveloped in relation to the psychic content that is not included in the perception of our parents reverse sides as influential psychic properties which affects our life in a profound way. Its relationship to the world through its limited experience of them is distorted and one-sidedly naive. We try to recreate the original image of our psychic parents by complementing what our biological parents lacked in them through our young, early relationships. Many of the difficulties we experience in them, even as we get older if the psychic couple is not yet intact, are what we experience here. In older Sami tradition, they were called Radien-Attje and Radien-akka. They were a jointly experienced psychic couple. The great source, and father, and the great mother. Spirit and Nature, and our relationship with them was mediated by their son and daughter. The inner person, the child. Radien-giedde and his relation to Radien-niejta, the psyche, inner space, our Nature. Without the feeling that the great mother and father are complete, we have not yet developed our ability to help ourselves with the instructions coming from beyond our physical presence, and the psychic properties who present themselves in addition to our connection to this child. Without the experience of them as a couple where they individually form a whole we will become indulgent and self-pitying, and we search for their missing sides in our romantic relationships and in the world. Or we become authoritarian and punitive in relation to our perception of our psychic person. Either way we have to act them out, and think about them to reveal their influence over us. This conversation will change as we pay attention to it, and turn into a perpetual dialog with the parts of humanity that is growing within the psychic context of our personality. As from nowhere we will replace the self-image we have with this connection, and our conversation to the content that constitutes what we are. We are no longer the image we have made of ourselves. Our reflection, how we look at ourselves has moved from the outside to the forces of life erupting from the inside, and to the authenticity of how we look at ourselves from within. The child then begins to interact with the properties of its new surroundings. We become psychic beings. I can also see how my grandson commutes between these extremes. Between his emerging inner person and the outer adaptation outside of this that takes place in his being. On the one hand, living with a child’s obviousness, and the opposite in the vulnerability that his incipient inner person experiences in relation to the psychic world. A reconciliation for us means that these aspects can somehow be incorporated into our life in relation to both ourselves and to other people.