Etikett: natur

As the life of the psyche arises out of organic life. It has the unique quality of creating itself through its own activity. It is from within this womb of mother nature itself that all the world events are born.
And it depends on us whether we help coming events to birth and give shape to all life, or whether we turn it into poison.

If I cannot relate the themes of my psychological processes to actual situations and to other people. Their behaviour will make me feel confused and desoriented. Its like trying to relate to something that doesnt exist. They will really make me feel that none existent and empty.
Its like being exposed to a grave.

Even if we are coming from a learned or forced devaluation and neglection of our being, we no longer need faith to believe in the impulses, sufferings and anguish we experience from the psyche. Nor do we need any endorsement to believe in any of the material that claim our attention from within. We will still carry it with us everyday as our common source of pychological reality as we do it with any kind of objective experience. Behind it we will even find our modern way of initiation. And we don’t need to believe in neurological pathways to be able to have it. It’s a symbolic reality. And the material offered to us is still going to affect us wheather we choose to acknowledge it as our reality or not.
It is what we are.

Being born in Norrbotten, Sweden is to be born with a certain kind of proudness. You are proud in a certain sense of being. But not like the citified people from the southern part of Sweden have it.
That is not proudness.
This is about a collective memory of a relation to oneself. And what we are surrounded with by birth. Its about having a relation to appearance by how it connects to our beingness.
We are aware of this relation because we are born with it.
Our being has made us constantly aware of this relation between what people are, and what they appear to be. And it is what sets us apart from people down south.
This is also what generates our kind of stubbornness. Often experienced as distrust by outsiders. But what it really is, is proudness. Everything depends on being relatable by being.
We dont like to give in to appearence.

There is a big difference for mankind in acting on the psychological material of the world, and participate in the balancing of the natural forces of our nature on a metaphysical plane. Since once it has materialized in the physical world, it is already to late.

As we move further into life, we have to leave what has up to a certain point been our introjected frame of mind. We have realised that to preserve the integrity of our self, we now have to bring ourself back from where we have been in parts, and misplaced. We have to return to the origins of what we are.
So we move on and we discover that we have been born into our parents and grandparents ancestral psychological settings. And as we continue on, we learn about the mindset and memory of the society wherein that has been embedded. But as we are living in those settings, we also have to find our own individual relation to them. How we belong to it all. We really have to find out how this is going to make sense for us. How the source of what we are and the primordial themes of our psychic life can become one again. We will have to connect to our metaphysical ancestors.
The forces facing us as we move closer to them is far beyond what rationality alone can comprehend. And when we as beings in the world turn our impulses inside out, we will become consumed by them. And when engulfed, we try to hold on to something. Anything that can save us from them. And we do that by grouping around a conceptual reality, a political ideology, or whatever we may come across rationally for the purpose of not having to become exposed to the violent forces that threatens us from our within.
The powers we meet here are as irrefutable as they are real.
And we really have to realise what we call wisdom and kindness, has to come from somewhere.

A while ago i stumbled over an excerpt that beautifully described an experience i had that triggered a series of events that completely changed how i perceived everything around me at that time in my life.
I completely broke from the life i had then, and went into an uncharted country. The rational world that up to that point had dominated me, turned into its neglected counterpart.
In short, i came to my senses and its instinctual and cyclical connection with nature.
The excerpt that now perfectly described what then happened to me came from Carl Gustav Jung. It hit me like a combined image of processes, feelings and thoughts. Here it is:
”In so far as the spirit is also a kind of ”window on eternity”… it conveys to the soul a certain influx divinus… and the knowledge of a higher system of the world, wherein consists precisely its supposed animation of the soul.”
Or to put it another way, the energy of my objective interest turned inward, to my senses and that awakened my inner, or psychic relatedness to both myself and to my world. My whole world became both rational and relational. I became aware of myself in a sense of being part of nature inside this past, that went far beyond myself as a single lifetime. And that this somehow, from now on, just had to be integrated into my life.
So by this quote I suddenly realised exactly what had happened to me. What had happened inside of me. Here it was formulated to me in another way, and before this happened to me, such things would have been impenetrable. Now, it was somewhat surprising to me, because Jung is an unbelievably thorough thinker and i can just about think myself out of a paper cup. But the underlying processes that he described confirmed what had happened to me, and made an absolutely clear image of what i went through at that time. I could never had come even close to be able think about my senses like that.
Anyways, at that moment i learned that as he was absolutely true to his experience, and that he was trying to mediate it as being a thinker of our being. And if one is really true to the flow of life as it passes through us, it will always be understandable if we negotiate it from within ourselves.
Our ability to understand what we are is not dependent on how we navigate. It is dependent on how true we are to the origin of our self when we move from our subjective state to an objective reality. That is also why I have always felt uneasy or uncomfortable with people who are repeatedly moving from one objective form of reality to the next. Because the only thing there, is just this formalised collective personality.
There is no self, no individual relationship to being.
Or once again:
So long as the self is unconscious, it corresponds to Freud’s super-ego and is a source of perpetual moral conflict. If, however, it is withdrawn from projection and is no longer identical with public opinion, then one is truly one’s own yea and nay. The self then functions as a union of opposites and thus constitutes the most immediate experience of the Divine which it is psychologically possible to imagine.
I would not use the word divine myself, but it really says something about the true force of nature that we are exposed to from the inside of our ancestral world.

My encounters with people depends on an inner connection. I am intimate first of all with myself. To be touched by you i need to be touched within. I listens to the effect of others within. If i am not connected within myself, or if each one within him or herself are not connected, there is not going to be any connection. My self will lack direction to being and to any kind of human intimacy. We will just experience absence, repression, distance and judgemental superficial separation of arguments into opposing extremes. Everything is going to be turned into rational arguments of moral opposites like good or bad. Or maybe clinical ones like what is ill and well. But mostly logical as in true and false mixed up with good and bad to become an infinite loop of arguments leading nowhere on what to accept or not.
There’s not going to be a real connection for me to any real personal experience since intimacy to its largest part has an intuitive dimension beyond the physical one of love and sexuality.
And if this is not just me, then there must be something wrong with most people in this world.
Just watch and listen.
Our normal is really not a good thing.

If one equates masculinity with objective interest, or make an analogy with it like with the wind. But of an internal kind, blowing around inside, and one is undifferentiated from it.
Like a child the ego is going to try to ride this wind, and we are going to be thrown around on it behaving like we were crazy without being able to stop. On this ride there is no real reflection, no inner context in relation to judgement, and no real connection to earth. Or to being. We just continue to behave like restless children trying to control the movements of this energy, or make it behave in certain ways.
At some point in life we have to learn to let it go, we have to release it because we understand that it has its own way and its own direction. We learn the hard way that our erratic behaviour comes from us trying to capture it. But since this is an impossible task and it will completely wear us out, we instead starts to listen to it trying to understand what it have to say. We even try to find out where it wants to go in itself.
And suddenly to this great and total confusion to us, it turns inward, and to earth. It moves there to create this relation to where it is all about relations. And this move comes with its own inherent morals. It is like an initial date that is suddenly turned into a relation, like a marriage. A union between that energy and to a kind of true relatedness. Its like we suddenly become physical beings in a metaphysical world.
And the world one has left behind becomes this one sided world of truly insane conceptual opposites.
A world that is really horrible to ever have been any part of.
Herein lies the very reason to the compulsiveness in my change.

More than 10 000 species go extinct each year. They are lost forever from life itself and will never appear again. This is something that happens on a daily basis almost entirely because of habitat loss and soil destruction as a result of our emissions of greenhouse gases, and from our exploitation of earth in terms of deforesting, farming, global urban expansion, mining, oil drilling, water pollution, oil sand extraction, etc.
Because all species live and interact with an ecosystem, that system will also suffer with more of its species lost when we change that system.
The dynamics of all life cycles comes from earth’s cover with soil, as thin as only one-two meters. This thin layer of soil is the foundation of all life. Every ecosystem dynamically interacts with it, and has a total reliability on its ability to host and maintain the constant regeneration of new life.
Life as we know it are completely dependent on it.
We can then discuss our impact, and our losses all we want.
This is where the change now occur. Those plants and animals are not coming back.
We are at a point in time where we are actually disrupting earths ability to create life.

200 years ago there were less than one billion humans living on earth. Between 1900 and 2000, the increase in world population was three times greater than during the entire previous history of humanity. The Earth now has close to 8 billion people.
At the same time in 1900, there were about 5000 cars in the world, and no trucks or buses. In 2010 there were about 1 billion 2 hundred million cars in the world emitting exhaust into the air.
And almost 8 billion people eat, use water, and produce waste and pollution in a way that has never been seen by anything in this scale before in earths entire history.
Not to forget that at the same time human exploitation of our natural resources supplying all those people also increases at the same levels. Up to 500 million tons of heavy metals, solvents and toxic sludge slip into the global water supply every year. In the developing world alone, as much as 70 percent of industrial waste is just dumped untreated into the rivers and lakes.
Our actions effects the earth in a way it has not met before. And this has just happened in the last 200 years of earths history.
From the scientific community’s point of view, there are significant disruptions in the Earth’s physical and ecological systems. And what they find that support a rapidly changing climate is not a perspective. Their results confirms that human‐induced climate change caused by human activities is occurring right now, It is not a question of if it is going to have an effect, it is happening right now. It is all about what the outcome of this effect will be for us. How it will change the earths organism. And where that will leave us in terms of the survival of life on earth.
We are actually already talking about our survival.

Christianity really is the religion of psychotic dads. People take pride in being tortured by fathers and treated like slaves to ”his” will. This is what most people in the western world are exposed to whether they know it or not. And they justify their actions in the world by how they themselves have been treated. Or they behave like subservient children who are accustomed to abuse.
No wonder the defensive subversiveness, the relation to life in fear and hopelessness. Or the opression of others, in trying to convert them to ideas and beliefs that belongs to someone else. We become completely ignorant to a bully that comes from our inside and is of metaphysical or psychological origin.

We call it a psychosis when people are completely siezed by their inside world.
What do we call the opposite?
When people are completely ignorant of their inner dialogue and are completely lost to a world full of ideas and social rules taken in a literal sense.
Normality??

In my world there have always been two separate sets of time operating simultaneusly.
They are often related to as profane time and sacred time, or cosmic time and historical time. Together they constitute a continuity of my being. Profane time is linear and has a beginning and an end. Sacred time is timeless, with no beginning, no end and no direction. I have always had a preference for the psychological aspects of sacred time. I have relied on it to guide me since it was from here that i felt that my being was given its real values. I was in it, and it was in me.
Everything linear was temporary. And the temporary aspects had its beginnings in sacred time as the origin i always felt myself close to. It was from there everything was created and it was from here everything was going to be recreated.
For a limited time, all that appears originates from this. Me, men, women, earth, stars, trees, birds, grass, vind. Everything.
But for some, this sacred time is just childhood. Nothing more. It ends there.
For me it has always been much, much more than that.

It suddenly dawned on me that the rational language and words of psychology has become the only acceptable way for an individual in our collective to mediate any of his or hers inner life, if he or she want to be taken as a serious witness to any form of order behind our individual experiences. Any other way is viewed upon as outdated and is going to be treated with suspicion, or it will be regarded as insubstantial.
It will even be ridiculed and considered naive.
But this is how to present subjectivity if we really want to get listened to, or want to be taken seriously. It is how we can try to enter that world from the inside. Not through any direct individual experience. You are not allowed to turn the world inside out.
Just bring any such subject up in a discussion, pay attention to how people react and first take a more imaginary and descriptive approach. Try to describe things in in your own words. Then change that by referring to psychology and the accepted wordings of this approach and everyone is suddenly going to feel much more comfortable.
The more impersonal you get the more comfortable they will feel.
It is really taking something heartfelt and sincere out of us as individuals in any given situation to do that. And it is even painful at times.
But we are going to get ourselves a new perspective on this small minority that we like to call individuality by reconnecting consciously to the world in this way. And maybe, just maybe, we can live without hitting everyone in the head with a hammer to see if we can get through to others in our own way.

There is one side of us where no one else can follow.

Our being, or to be in that simple state we like to call being, is not an inactive state of nothingness. It is where we are closest to the identity of our form of being.
Here is the battleground between our pre- conditional forgotten metaphysical memory of what we are, and later collective attempts to change our perception of what that nature really is.
This is an extremely active personal state of being.
It is right here that our true identity, and the entire nature of that whole being becomes visible.

The christian merge with capitalism have always coincided with colonisation, with the re-education and desecration of traditional values, and a conversion of other cultures into a christian one for profit, giving colonialism its legitimacy.
But not all of them wanted to be citified and live without an intimate connection to the natural world. Most of them didn’t want to be molded into the religious, economic, political, or educational system of our world.
And there are still people who doesn’t want to live in a designed world created by someone else on convictions that doesn’t belong to them.
The world they know was already there.
It was already in them.

If i was to describe femininity i would say it is psychic relatedness. But then i am also aware that it is just a concept, one way to assign comprehensibility to my own experiences. It is my femininity. How my imagination make my psychic reality perceivable to me.

Indigenous people have been viewing the flow of life from within for more than eight thousand years. They have known that the rational side of life, or patriarchal side, should assist and work to support the natural flow of life as it passes through us. They know that the world that we are in, is also inside us. And this is what ensure the survival of all life.
But then the plague of christian colonisation of ancestral memory swept over the world as it tried to save the world from itself.
And now this world and the origin of its species needs to be saved from them.

From the perspective of individuality, time is an objective experience and eternity closely related to ones subjective state of being.
In this context, less time is therefore more being. Or more eternity.
It is another kind of time.

Without ever thinking about it, most people have unknowingly adopted the christian view that only humans have a soul. Or have any part in the soul of the world. And it is by christian men alone having this, that only they can create a psychological relationship with the world at large.
It is with this attitude we justify our own importance and loose our perspective for the natural world and behave superior to nature.
This attitude makes us fall into our own wilderness, we start worshipping our own agendas.
We become an out of hand destructive element polluting all areas of the world on which we depend because we are downsizing our fundamental capacity to relate. We are as much part of someone else’s environment as they are part of ours. The world in which we live is also the world which lives in us. By turning off the world we are no longer part of something opposite of our own rationality, discrimination and judgement.
As with all creatures, from stars to humans, to insects. We share in our own consciousness a form of a primary chaordic force. We each mirror a part of that consciousness. Of that relatedness opposite of rationality.
With the onesidedness of rationality, we are no longer able to recognise this, or how it relates to the context in which we live.
We loose a profound expression of what we are.
This christian bulldoze view of superiority has merged with capitalism without moral or ethics, to create what we call our modern world as an opposite to the native world of relations.
And it is completely out of control.

I made my first time psychological experience of chaos when my parents broke up. It wasn’t just their separation. I was also separated from the immediacy of everything i knew and cared about. So the interiority of the world engulfed me and i lived inside it for a very long time. But i also learned a lot about what it was. And later that perhaps it have served me a purpose. I did get out a couple of times. Love have a way with things. But soon enough i got thrown right back in.
It is a terribly frightening experience to learn that there is an infinate spontaneous perspective to cosmology and habitual order. And to encounter the inevitability of this raw nature at first hand. To be overrun by it.
It does not matter how old you are. It is merciless. And it will always
shake you up like nothing else.
It is what any initiation does to you.

I’ve never been able to equate hell with chaos. It is a christian thought that has never been part of my experience. Hell for me have always been this artificially created culture and its -isms and ideologies. How they relate not only to nature within, but also how its attitude relate to the nature of the world. Chaos is a completely different experience, it is a psychic condition, initially associated with pain. It is the beginning of an inner realignment that later transfer itself into a chaordic energy of infinite recurrence. Or a spontaneous flow of the world, seen from within.
It is from this experience my close relation to mother earth was born.

I could never have thought that transcendence in our present day life was ever to sacrifice the inherent attitude of hero -ism for the great mother of the eternal return who devours her progeny. And that this sacrifice has to be done after having gone through an almost unimaginable effort of separation from the original mother to become part of this artificially invented culture, with all of its ongoing ideological and mythological struggles to get independence from her.
But we have to sacrifice him to get access to the source and to the cycles of life.
He must be sacrificed so that life might renew.

We can view the great cosmic mother, the source of all life and the incarnated experience we have of her, as the metaphysical perception of an eternal recurrence in her physical form as mother earth. The cosmic father can be viewed as an incarnation of a potency, the great generator, the being that is able to create itself out of matter. That is, the one seeding his metaphysical creation in mother earth with the mythical patterns he has created out of his being, thus creating the behavior that differentiates the actions and creative flow in all physical forms by the background patterns of nature that we may call its consciousness.
It is almost like viewing another layer of being.
To enter life inside itself.

When it is dark. Everything not visible becomes more alive. Even that which is dead. It is the restful sound of reflexion that is expressed by life inside itself.
And as darker it gets, the smaller the difference is between man and animal. Between nature within and nature without.
The living memory of how close we are is becoming more and more evident. The world of my reality and the world of my imagination moves closer to each other.
That is, my consciousness and the unknown, the light of the day and the world of the unconscious is almost standing next to each other.
It is always something separated here that wants to be joined together again. That needs to be met and dealt with between the different levels of reality.
Here it it is done with me as one of its participants.

We are all witnesses to something inside of us from where we are receiving our experiences. It is in the midst of our being. And the I is not what is doing the transmitting to me from the impression of what I imagine.
It comes from another source, and it is handed to me to make me respond to the inside of a world to which we are also a part.
And it calls on me for an aesthetic response that has moral implications.
It is more like responding to the soul of the world.
This is what make me react in a different way from most, not having established this relation.

Mens otherworldliness, because it conflicts with life, must be dreamed into existance and carefully cultivated into the maternal ground.

— Aboriginal wisdom

Most of us walk around in life missing that our impulses have a content.
We have even named it projection when we act on their behalf.
If we try not to generalise, we could even identify some of them because the original character of our impulses really are our first and primary projectors.
It is their actions that make up this world.

One scientific tool of the mind is generalisation. Almost every one use it outside of this context and they become sort of distracted from being humans. Few of us seem to realise that it is just a tool, unless we are a being of a different setup than thinking, with a preference for logic. But by applying generalisation to our daily life, we are actually being reductive to our way of relating to the world both outside and inside of us.
We are lumping together all kinds of different perceptions of personal reality, excluding the being inside of the human from it.
”A class of humans is not a human, A class of trees is not a tree.” is rather what should be applicable to everything both inside of us, and in the physical world of our senses.
When we are using our symbolic or creative language we are not only expanding on the representations or forms perceivable by our outer senses, we relate to them. From the viewpoint of our consciousness all our experience is likely to be symbolic wether it comes from the inside or the outside, because all we know are symbolic residues that originates from a single individual source shared by us all.
When we generalise we are imposing a generalisation as a system of thoughts, reducing the world and everything in it to an order of that system.
We are forgetting the relation we have to the living presence from which it arose.
And forgetting this is what deprive us of our perceptual richness and intensity.

Peoples almost complete lack of internality makes them such a bloody bore.

Everybody is born not only from woman but as woman.
Mens otherworldliness, because it conflicts with life, must be dreamed into existence and carefully cultivated in the maternal ground.

— Australian aboriginal wisdom

When we are leaving childhood and are in a transition, moving into young adults, we realize that the world we are living in is really a horrible shitworld containing every single horror we can possibly think of. Nothing of what we have learned so far prepared us for this, and nobody comes to guide us. We are on our own trying to decide on what to accept of it, what our own part of it is, and what we really need to compromise with. If we are lucky, we go into this with a strong personal sense of who we are, feeling confident in ourselves. Because what happens now is determined by the foundation of how you got here. You are going to be pounded so hard by opposites that no words of comfort that do not correctly confirm or identify your experiences will be accepted by you, they will be instantly rejected. We act on impulse now. We are on impulse mode, learning about ourselves, so we are not susceptible to anything else. And as we are moving in our direction, we are going to realize just how helpless both those closest to us, and everyone else really are to the horrors of this world, and to the pressure this battle causes in us. Most of us have not been equipped with what we need to face this. People with a background in native traditional beliefs have a great advantage here compared to the average urban-rural divided westener.
Hopefully you will pass through. With or without any guidance. Mostly by blindness, ignorance, imprudence and disbelief.
But somehow later in life, we will have to try to find the language and the means to face it properly.
We have to ready ourselves for it, because it will come back to hit us again every time we are required to make a transition in life. Or someone else around us do.
And if we didn´t do it right the first time, we will have to do it all over again together with everything that we left behind inside of us.

My consciousness continuum is like an orphaned equal to this literally weight that i have madly handled in the shape of only sanctioned references that spontaneous imagination has abandoned in my nature.