If I were to let my ego also be the underlying stream of consciousness that at every moment follows every mental state and its process, I would go crazy. To a certain extent we are conditioned to do so because we try to adapt it to the expectations that the environment has of how we should be and behave. Not how this undercurrent’s relationship is to our inner person in its own relationship to it. But if we are it, if we identifies with it, then we are constantly being thrown around among sensations, impressions and impulses in a more or less arbitrary order without them having any direct connection with our person as a whole. It becomes fragmented and without a coherent relation to a psychic structure that gives it an inner connection in relation to its parts and a fundamental belonging to its creative source. We feel crowded upon and become stressed, anxious and irritated. But the underlying stream of consciousness is not ours to be. It is something in and of itself independent of the ego. Its original function is to provide consciousness with the information that arises in its encounter with events in our lives and to create experiences from it by means of the conditions that attractors create behind our mental processes that consciousness is then drawn into and get absorbed by, before withdrawing again when they have served their purpose. Otherwise it turns into a ”monkey mind”, constantly chattering if the ego identifies with the underlying stream of sensations and impressions where it tries to find ways to adapt it to its environment in its attempts to control it. But our identification with it confuses our ego, overwhelming it with intentions that do not belong to it, causing the stream of the preconscious mind to lose its context and create chaos outside of the original relationship it has to the content that we interact with through psychic reflection in a meditative sense. We will end up in a constant inner war with ourselves. Something that we then stage for people around us.