to stay with one particular theme generated in and of itself in the midst of the welter of experience

At first emptiness is a strange feeling. Although it is a constant but dormant activity in the background where our conscious space resides and our experiences of it are transformed into psychic matter and mental actions that interact with our lives all the time, creating experiences before retreating back to its original state, even if it is something we do not always observe or even pay attention to. Most often it seems that it is something that never really reaches a conscious level, but only affects us when it is perceived in its unprocessed forms of impressions and impulses without contact with our relationships or with the inner family that forms a context for our first relationship with our inner person’s relation to it, by which we also percieve it in its original psychic state of wholeness and in a peace of mind that it conveys to us as it exert their influence on us outside the directly experiential world around us. The tragedy of this is that no real person can fully possess all the qualities of the people in our inner family. That is why we find their real significance in the interpersonal or psychic sphere, and the dramatization of our relationships with them in relation to people around us. In unspoken demands, wishes and expectations that no real human being can fulfill without going far beyond the limits of our own personality at the expense of our inner balance and mental health. Which are mediated by our impressions and impulses that we immediately stage and act on when our minds are still not mature enough. When we are young or still psychologically immature, we experience this only from the frightening perspective of the emptiness and on the personal level of the ego, on its identification with our staging of our inner family. Our experience of them is through our physical parents and siblings. Then through our girlfriends, boyfriends, wives and husbands, and in people we look up to beyond them, who are transformed into the references we need to be able to handle the raw intangible experiences, whose psychic impact on us goes beyond all personal conceptualizations of them in our communication with the underlying preconscious states that convey the fundamental experiences we have of the foundation of our being. A much deeper context we obtain for the most part in nature as an embodiment of it in an inner comprehensive and universal experience of wholeness, together with the underlying communication that constantly takes place between us in relation to the source of information and directions our inner person is an intermediary for, and transform into psychic matter. Here is where the absorption occurs that makes it possible for us to take in the events we discern from the content of what this emptiness creates in our consciousness, where we can see ourselves through the experiences we have in our eidetic perceptions that form the relationship between the underlying stream of sensory impressions, impulses, thoughts and feelings, and our life. Beyond them there are no objects, no thoughts, just plain experiences.