When we spend days in solitude in a meditatively concentrated way, we will soon discover the absolute foundation we have within us. It expresses itself in an absolute state of mental equilibrium, stillness and peace. We become so attached to it that everything else in our senses will be perceived as questioning this original equilibrium. But it is not ours in the sense of mine. We will also discover that the absolute psychic foundation we are in is in the nature around us as well. It is within us, in all of us, and everywhere around us. It is in us as we are in it. We are all in it all the time. It can be likened to an initiation. Where we enter a balance in life that is determined by how we relate to it. Some will always remain psychologically immature in that sense because it involves a challenge of how we relate not only to ourselves but also to this balance of mind in relation to all life that not everyone desires or can endure. We are called even if we stay here and only experience it as ours in relation to our ego and see this inner balance from its meaning in relation to its fleeting compensations to its surroundings. Our inner equilibrium is a scale on which we are weighed against a feather. Before we discover this and let go of it, in the sense of our attachment to it, we will notice how our emotional movements, impulses and impressions move restlessly everywhere around us. But they are loosening now or have begun to loosen from their previously accustomed directions, and habitual behavior. Our mental equilibrium becomes how we weigh and evaluate how we choose to meet the original whole that nature has now become for us. Whether we encounter it as if it were outside of us or within us, it works the same way. If we abandon it too much and in our sense of accomplishments and brilliance, or make ourselves a kind of conditioned pattern of virtue, people around us, or if we ourselves are exposed to it, will perceive it as a psychological assault. We experience it as someone trying to hijack and replace our inner psychological equilibrium with the content of themselves and their merits. With their habitual patterns of virtue. We will experience it as if we are being rejected from the being that our nature is within us, and from the whole it is together with the nature we find ourselves in. That wholeness is experienced as being devalued and mixed with the feeling of insignificance that the violation of the equilibrium brings with it. On the other hand, it also conveys an experience of inadequacy because it is about experiences that we do not ourselves have in relation to our own psychological conditions and sources. Mixed together in this way, it will convey the impression of being incompetent, of never reaching a standard based on our own inner conditions. We will become anxious and psychologically stressed, and do real damage to the absolute ground we share with everything both within ourselves and in others in the absence of the balance of mind that this original wholeness is. We discover this when we become capable of observing it both in ourselves and in others from within its lack of concentration, disordered behavior, and in the constant flight it puts us in as it tries to compensate for its lost equilibrium through its reaction pattern of restlessness, because we are always in it, as an experience of this interior of the exterior, which we find ourselves in at all times. It leads to and functions as the living essence of psychic insight that results from accessing the right kind of concentration.