the convenience of rationality

It terrifies me to realize that we use rationality to create pleasant and agreeable relations to our personal world just to keep the beingness of ourselves under control through other people. No matter how it want’s to be individually experienced and expressed by them. We do it because our being will otherwise question that rational attitude, our made up reality, and how we relate to life.
By beingness, i refer to that eternal form of psychological being we have that always appear unchanged to us, and always stays the same, while it relates a sense of purpose to us and make us feel vital and juvenescent. No matter what our body tells us as it changes and decays. But in the end, we will all go back to being. Because being always is.