It has always felt strange to me how my surroundings relate to what constitutes our cohesive personality. Because I myself have never perceived it exclusively in the sense of a certain form of study or how we practice it. I have learned to include myself in it from its social and practical significance, but outside of what it actually is to me in a comprehensive sense, by psychic reflection and self-observation. It was easier when I was young because then what constituted the psychic actors of the preconscious original whole was clearer not only in me. They related to them in a similar way in my surroundings as well through the original whole that it conveyed. The confusion arose when the contents of the preconscious psyche were not simultaneously allowed to have a cultural expression but were abandoned for the pretend personality that was only intended to perceive itself through something else, and beyond what gave them a belonging and a greater personal context for the communication we have with it as something in common with others. It is in the preconscious relationship to the personality that it is expressed in its parts through us, and we interact with it together with others, who over time give it an embodiment and the form that I like to call our personality. Without the larger totality of our being, it just becomes a limited concept we act out as children. We act it out without context and without self-observation on every impression, impulse and instinct that appears within us. We cannot yet perceive the underlying psychic context whose factors act in an independent way, in themselves through us. We perceive only the psychic event, not the original psychic agent that generated it. The personality then acts mostly in an acting out, unbalanced, and incoherent way without its equilibrium, because it has never been concentrated in meditative seclusion. But that’s where they give our impressions their true essence. This absence of it becomes apparent not only as something we recognize in others but also in ourselves when we act in a forced or aggressive manner without the feeling of the inner absolutely fundamental sense of calm and peacefulness that our true inner foundation fills us with.