Looking at this world, I also have to recognise i live i a world that is completely existential.
No words cant do it justice. And it doesn´t matter how much i try to document it, or try to reach it by my rationality. It is existential. It creates my sense of existence out of this non-rational experience. And as such it is also beyond me. But I am very much inside it. It is my living present. The right here and right now.
A container of what we make of our reality. All ideas we try to create out of it.
We even call it reality.
The quest of morality
When constantly being hammered by the conflict of public moral code and the contents of morality in itself, i am painfully questioned of what is psychologically valid in a personal sense.
About politics
All politics are about moral conflicts. And there are no general answers effective in moral conflicts.
They are individually suffered and no preaching can touch it.
If there is one single thing that reflects our world back to us, making it an image of ourselves and blackening out the rest.
It is this.
Democracy and how to go about it.
Maybe it is our parliament, and our gouvernment itself who need some adjustment.
What we see right now is that one part is missing in that equation. When considering the present situation, it is obvious something in our gouverning is not there, the parliament do not really answer to no one. The people they are responsible for is not really there, so they don’t have any real counterpart.
Just think about that for a moment.
Because right now they just answer to themselves. And this is not good democracy.
Who is taking care of our wealth. Were is our leadership of wealth. Who is taking care of our water. Our nature. Who is looking after our common good. Obviously, wealth is very much dependent on how new money first should be spent into the economy. But there is no true counterpart in parliament for that.
Our leaders badly need this. They should have to answer before the leader of wealth to be able to make good decisions for the people.
Right now, our parliament here in Sweden, as in many other countries, are divided among themselves, and arguing full time about who should be its leader. How parliament should be led, and in what direction. And with our media fully occupied by reporting on this disagreement, good decisions going out the window.
And this is currently built into the system by the absence of a real working counterpart.
For that to change, we need them to answer to someone on the basis of a working democracy, and that should be accomplished through a leadership of wealth.
With such a counterpart, our parliament then have to change its priorities to be only of concern to the wealth and wellbeing of its people.
We should even consider having a pre election on candidates where only women can vote. And after that we can all vote on the outcome of their election.
Our ambassador on Island suffered heavy criticism for it, but he is not too far from the truth, intuitively thinking democracy is being ”dismantled” by its current constitution in Sweden.
By thinking about it anew, we may actually adjust our parliament closer to its original vision, and maybe, we can then make our parlament the true working heart of democracy we want it to be.
So now you know who you are?
There is this a kind of realm for itself. Not out there, nor in here, yet both. It is not really a reality of a concrete kind. It is something that is happening to us, making my experiences mine, and also a bridge and an entrance to a psychic reality common to us all were we meet.
Its obvious entrance is through nature. Without it we would not be here.
This is illustrated with warmth by Oren Lyons in his story on being high on learned knowledge and its distant rationality coming back home after graduation.
About indigenous people
There is one thing we can learn from our indigenous people.
It has nothing to do with becoming them, mimicking or stealing their culture, or expropriate intellectual rights. It is about their presence, and to be able to change.
It is listening to ourselves to get a sense of the world.
To really sense the true force of its living inside of us.
On human encounters
Human problems are not something people have but something people are.
– James Hillman
428
The returning characters of our being sometimes sculptor the lightning I am painting of our depths following the sparrows of earth and its intentions in our unconnected memory of ugliness and motives inside the geometry of heights.
Väinämöinen
Let the time pass, let days go
and needed will I be again,
needed will I be, longed for, looked for
To forge the New Sampo, to make the New Kantele
to move the new moon, to change a new day
427
In devotion to solitude from willing clouds in drops of moonlight dreams surrounded by the formless temple of cosmos nighttime, we are granted a homage from infinity.
What reality
Most people today live in only one single perpetual reality, measured and explained, beyond the perceived one.
How can we meet?
About an inner calling
A wonderful way to handle knowledge.
In times of a society in stress there is a call from a past mind latent in the present one to pay attention to its content.
We don´t have any elders in our society, just youth.
The west we made of ourself
When i put the west i see in my mirror, i sense the image after which we have made ourselves.
This sadistic, melancholy one sided anxiety ridden paranoia of an omniscient rationality and omnipotent ruler through abstract principle of justice, morality and order. Enraged when not followed or his will is crossed. Our consciousnes is reflecting this image. Most often as cold, distant and ruthless, but as an ideal he is old, bearded and distant. A god of manhood. Even women identify with this image. This is how we all think we should appear if we want to rule, or show decisiveness. We think conquering is relating. Not surprisingly, this image we have of ourselves then, is also a wifeless one. It´s an ideal of manhood, and it has no woman beside it. There are no traits of compassion. Or true generosity. It suffers a complete lack of the feminine.
No wonder there is a problem with the nature of earth and personal feelings. And in our views on women.
This is what we force upon the world. This is our image. The very image we present ourself with to the world.
What is going on out there
Looking at the world today, the problem i see is not the youth movement started in the late fifties, continuing to this day with its rebels questioning authorities through beatniks, flower power, punks, neo rights, leftists, or modern art. Or music, film, literature, or todays climate or money distribution movements. Nor is the problem the abstract and stubborn rationality of established order through old worn out ideologies, wall street politics, or economic theory. Our religious views or our -isms.
What we see in our world are the symptoms of all of that. And the tension we have in the world is the absence of the unification of the two in the world of individuals.
The grumpy old men of frozen and established order versus the dynamic views and concerns coming from outside of time in our youth. Often this youth present their need for change in something even more rigid than the present protectors of the past. But the one are in a desperate need of the other.
Its a real horror to watch.
426
Any calendar has a breath of a another feathered will that hovers over people when they are following the victims of bad pencils in the vanilla of mirrors.
Authority Experiment
This testperson is our views, our beliefs, -isms and political ideologies.
What if they are our leaders and the person submitted to the electric shocks are us.
Conformity Experiment
We are that testperson, and the others are our beliefs, our views, -isms and political ideologies.
425
The canvas time-wheel world armchair vendetta is interrupting the unconscious daytime voices and challenges the electric collection of a numberless creation.
424
We have surpassed our elements like virgin Columbus´s of a new world.
423
Like a dream out of another we are un-exposed beyond its limits of a delirious and lookalike phenomena employed as a collectively assembled appearance of space.
We are serving between the imagery of a character and the answers of an atmosphere expressed as our random physical properties used by the outcome of all our inspired divinations whatever phantoms the world´s memory has painted on us.
422
The primitive edge of multiplicity dances in our black retinas as immaterial superstitions of luminous shapes for the holy act of Euclid´s invasion of a daylight continuity.
421
This mankind´s seedy beings are a vacancy composed of our framed sidewalks splinters in a blind today surrounded by dark vegetal temples draped as the tomorrows of underwater men.
It is the reality of armed echoes riding the circle of solemn landscapes acting as psychic matter.
420
I am the gluttonous naked remain that orphans the air of beyond in a former worn-out aura thirsting like a planted nonsense of repressed midnight aesthetics.
It is also my entrances to the skin-shapes of a turned reason.
419
The endless circulate appearances on the landscape of flying servants with noisy armour and soundproof bowels, arrows our wind like furious sirens.
418
Darkened by walks in this unknown sterile descending to capitals of dense temptations enveloped in fragments of our human apocalyptic void.
In here time is of no nocturnal circuit to blood, but I still hold hundreds of broken pleasures eating from my hand.
417
My somber escape on demoniacal monotonous samsara clouds in the umbilical disappearance of light and covered prayers, becomes a serpents wake from dreamless sleep finding affectionate objects on the face of angelic morning winds.
416
Great gluttonous dandies on electric cathedrals grows on my interstellar ornaments behind this volume of libidinous lunar harvest.
A base of reflexion
415
We carefully give burned nerve fibres to formless clocks in a lake of flesh. It is a marble dance we circle through by sober warmth and fever. A Frozen shock on strange legs in a memory licked stiff.
Its like we are without the shuffle of magic faces.
414
My concerned monuments is drifting behind the posture of our acting. Between the nights star knittings on the body of vulgar space and this vaguely overjoyed chamber of eternal thought they turn into time.
It is the strait anthems of sparkling daylight beings.
The fortunetellers of ink.
Daily life
Our actions are episodes constantly spinning out of our sleeping ancestors dreaming.
413
Flow as the learned wellspring leaves in far light and stars words is fading at our wicked drowned opaque dreams on dead vagabond flowers.
Today, a single brief however in beyond is the mechanized wanted inwardness in a vertical falling formula most of us does drop like mad horizontal contents of unwanted euphoria.
That highly never sometimes state the extremes of comprehension eating from the senses of a slumber.
412
My memory space me into an alphabet like a used exchange of daylight with an empty centurys compass of a dark angel.
Do you think that’s air you’re breathing?
It is not we who imagine, but we who are imagined.
The mind is in the imagination rather than the imagination in the mind.
– James Hillman –
411
The diamond shadow grows in dressed clouds with white self-created swarms of symmetrical mouths
from the above, where my costume itself is a frequently bursting room of always in old flesh.
410
Finally, this large violated aromatic curtains ware of polished carnivorous life is melted on the road of faces with the arms of decorative opuses.
They are our proud servants to extinct crocodiles.
Die ganze Welt ist ein Zirkus
Memoria
Tank, load the jump program.
Reality as my fiction
Am i not a being whose reality comes wholly from my imagination and the beliefs that imposes.
Isn’t this what I perform and name with the mask of my behavior.
I am enacting and miming a reality that is completely a fiction. And this is were the drama and horrors we create and call everyday life comes from.
It is also what we call news.
Alisvaggi July 2017
Tjäktjavagge July 2017
About leadership today
Being directed by, and unaware of the patterns of behaviour that flow from the organizing structure of a certain collective itself, rather than the individuality of its members,
is getting us very close to how people have come to appreciate the political, financial and corporate leadership of today.
409
My subconscious sculptures the sense of rational meaning to a before of this configurative infinite afterward of working matter.
408
Like mechanical pilgrim’s dolls on magnified nocturnal lenses our projections disfigures the abyss of the white clocks.
Imagination as individuality
When we try to describe something to someone else, we use our imagination trying to coordinate the personal inner stream of images and events into a coherent and living picture. There are times when we have to use someone else’s imagination, and we will also use both our own and others mixed together to be sure to get understood by what we are trying to describe in a certain context. But we also have a tendency trying to make them more believable by telling others that they should take them literally.
And we are even saying that since other people do take them literally, we should take them for granted if we want to get listened to, or get acceptance from others without being scorned at.
We are all using our imagination as individuals to express the experiences we have of ourselves here and now in our present environment.
And it is a true nightmare that we use some of them in a literally fashion, and as a collective to reject, or even repress the individuality behind them. We are actually getting shaped into a new internal coherence by our imaginations.
Once we have written ourselves into a particular fantasy with its expectations, typicalities, its character traits, what it offers for recognizing oneself. We then begin to shape our life into a caricature of that imagination.
407
The claws of a navel mind branches me with a cartesian seesaw trying to feed itself from the skin of old sayings.
406
I am not a noiseless you.
405
The planted tongues in my blood melts flesh and deflower the stars of their nature in well-fitting quicksilver lips.
404
My senses are being furnished by a waxed harvest in a wardrobe of frost showers.
403
Beneath the lunar salt-buttered flamboyant flesh brains, climbing on volume and purged of swollen roses, filled with gelatin nights covered with black tears, all will vanish in a wicked gray that leaves no trace.

