Stefan Stjernberg.com

When we are unable to discover our being as part of an individual experience of universal time, and how to live under an aspect of the sacrosanct experience as a reference for us to become humans, we live with what is present but not part of our conscious intention. Our ancestral part of the mind and its empirical world really is a life of its own, with demands of its own psychic assumptions.
Creation here is a kind of instant recognition. Something that is going on both inside us, and all around us at the same time. Its an ongoing process. Not some reprocessed moral dogma derived from certain political or religious historical references in relation to authoritarian ”fathers”.
We define ourselves in respect to how we can make our experiences applicable to the world. And if this is what all universe share as a structure in which all creation participate, is it not just logical to also assume that all creation have the ability to simultaneously relate to every other part of creation to which it also participates?
Which is to say, When a certain recognition is not made part of our conscious attitude, it will reappear to us objectively like something out of fate.
That fate will then demonstrate itself in outbursts of protests to a lack of acceptable leadership, political turmoil, climate change, pollution, dehumanisation, devaluation of psychological processes and religious traditions.
It really gives one a sense of humanity being on a visible path to the destruction of our world. Its almost like the view we have of our world and its present state is about to come to an end.
However important that psychological collective brakedown is, the most important part of this is that it also gives us a hint towards that which really have to change.

I am only a passage of generations in the shape of the human mind through the experience of the initial paternal principle of form and energy associated with mythology and the cultural products of man.
I am not an idea, or the conceptual and symbolic reality it creates. I am nature, matter and earth.
I am a son by a specific father’s complex, a fabric of the personal unconscious of natural occurrences in every human being. But I am also part of man’s mythology. And the ancestral source that generated me.
That’s what the experience of personal reality does, it exercises the role of fertilizing the primordial forces that impregnate us.

When we are not able to access our nature in a living psychological context that gives substance to matter, the world becomes a distant place.

Prayer in a modern sense is to wait for an idea, or something to be realized that is not the result of pure reasoning. We are looking for an answer that is beyond that.
So, what we are trying to do is to put our ego’s at rest for a moment, and create a connection to a source that is not directly available to the ego.
By definition I think this will qualify as praying, whether my ego wants to admit to it or not.
That is to say that we don’t pray to history, or to a past. It is something we do all the time.
Its really a kind of mystery. But we all do it.
It is our base of reflexion.

There is this substance of matter. Or essence if you like, that is placed inside the physical or material world of objective experience. It is what we call the nature of ”things”. The world from within. We find it everywhere. In people, places, plants and animals. And yet, somehow we seem to have forgotten that we take part in it not only through scientific reasoning, but also directly with our senses. We get access to it as experience filtered through our background and in the psychological layers of our ancestral past.
There is an obvious difference in our approach to reality between them, but they are of equal validity.
From a human perspective though, from the reality of personal experience, and from how we experience things in our world, it is really disorienting for anyone not being able to access our nature in a living psychological context that gives substance to matter.
What this will do to us is to create a suffering that is really quite maddening because there is no medical illness that we can attach to an experience like that. We have become unable to relate our personal experience to a living world. And we have no frame of mind that we can put it in. There is no cure to this by diagnosis, by some pills, or some self treatment with alcohol. It can only be treated by individual experience. And by the expulsion of the conceptual reality of the collective mind.
This absence of relations is something we get from the experience of the world as a symptom.

I think it is because most people right now doesn’t have an objective experience of the essence of our being, and an experience of it as a continuous revelation in communion to nature in both places and people, instead of in history and its events, that causes them to have this compulsive need to always philosophically try to explain everything. To search for external explanations.
And by trying to create a materialistic, or intellectually fixed reality, placing our spirit in concepts and ideas, we really miss out on having an ongoing living sense of reality based on experience in terms of our relationship to life.
In this context, belief is not something that is available to me as a replacement for experience.
And by looking at the world, it does not seem to be working there either.

From our civilized point of view, we must shame ourselves out, act foolishly and be mischievous, if we are to become humans, but without thinking that this is what we are.
Because it is not.
There is an objective from within that comes as a reaction to the conditions which we are situated in. And by letting oneself have a go with it, we are trying to behold our internal oracles as its source. In this case it is a socially completely uncivilized psychic character, it is our suppressed native, and original being. The part of us that is in denial and the world will suffer.
He will tell us all about the excessive conventionality and rationalism we are exposed to, or use on ourselves to cage our minds with. The more sofisticated or civilized we are, the darker he will be. He will show us all kinds of sad and horrible things that will come out of it when we are not paying attention, or identify ourself with him. From poverty to beggars, alcohol and drug addiction. To inequality, idealism and all kinds of impulsiveness, abuse and pertinacious extremism. We make him compulsive.
In one sense he is our true reaction to an invasive world. The ancestral force of subversion to the current state of affairs in a group or collective. To what we have become subjected to, and to what we have to deal with inside the world.
But if we take his reaction literally, and not as an objective event. Or he is viewed upon as something personal. An individual aberration that needs treatment, something we need to abolish. We are going to start to treat other people and ourselves accordingly.
Our reaction to his influence is how far from being we have come with civilization.
We have taken almost all humanity out of it. In fact, we have become so ”civilized”, that we don’t even really question the conditions by which this so called civilazation works on the perception of its individuals when it comes to just being human.

When I trace my ancestry I can follow my linage all the way back to the psychic origins of our first and original ancestors, and the true source of my being.
By finding my way to them, I do not invent their originality, I experience them.
They are behind the mentality of all my statements about psychic happenings and world events.
In a sense, they stand outside of history because they provide me with a creative relation to our timeless being. They are the involuntary psychic heritage and inferred meaning behind a world of their making. Their doings is the template from which all life emerges. They are always there and I am the product of their intentions.

As the life of the psyche arises out of organic life. It has the unique quality of creating itself through its own activity. It is from within this womb of mother nature itself that all the world events are born.
And it depends on us whether we help coming events to birth and give shape to all life, or whether we turn it into poison.

If I cannot relate the themes of my psychological processes to actual situations and to other people. Their behaviour will make me feel confused and desoriented. Its like trying to relate to something that doesnt exist. They will really make me feel that none existent and empty.
Its like being exposed to a grave.

Even if we are coming from a learned or forced devaluation and neglection of our being, we no longer need faith to believe in the impulses, sufferings and anguish we experience from the psyche. Nor do we need any endorsement to believe in any of the material that claim our attention from within. We will still carry it with us everyday as our common source of pychological reality as we do it with any kind of objective experience. Behind it we will even find our modern way of initiation. And we don’t need to believe in neurological pathways to be able to have it. It’s a symbolic reality. And the material offered to us is still going to affect us wheather we choose to acknowledge it as our reality or not.
It is what we are.

Being born in Norrbotten, Sweden is to be born with a certain kind of proudness. You are proud in a certain sense of being. But not like the citified people from the southern part of Sweden have it.
That is not proudness.
This is about a collective memory of a relation to oneself. And what we are surrounded with by birth. Its about having a relation to appearance by how it connects to our beingness.
We are aware of this relation because we are born with it.
Our being has made us constantly aware of this relation between what people are, and what they appear to be. And it is what sets us apart from people down south.
This is also what generates our kind of stubbornness. Often experienced as distrust by outsiders. But what it really is, is proudness. Everything depends on being relatable by being.
We dont like to give in to appearence.

There is a big difference for mankind in acting on the psychological material of the world, and participate in the balancing of the natural forces of our nature on a metaphysical plane. Since once it has materialized in the physical world, it is already to late.

As we move further into life, we have to leave what has up to a certain point been our introjected frame of mind. We have realised that to preserve the integrity of our self, we now have to bring ourself back from where we have been in parts, and misplaced. We have to return to the origins of what we are.
So we move on and we discover that we have been born into our parents and grandparents ancestral psychological settings. And as we continue on, we learn about the mindset and memory of the society wherein that has been embedded. But as we are living in those settings, we also have to find our own individual relation to them. How we belong to it all. We really have to find out how this is going to make sense for us. How the source of what we are and the primordial themes of our psychic life can become one again. We will have to connect to our metaphysical ancestors.
The forces facing us as we move closer to them is far beyond what rationality alone can comprehend. And when we as beings in the world turn our impulses inside out, we will become consumed by them. And when engulfed, we try to hold on to something. Anything that can save us from them. And we do that by grouping around a conceptual reality, a political ideology, or whatever we may come across rationally for the purpose of not having to become exposed to the violent forces that threatens us from our within.
The powers we meet here are as irrefutable as they are real.
And we really have to realise what we call wisdom and kindness, has to come from somewhere.

A while ago i stumbled over an excerpt that beautifully described an experience i had that triggered a series of events that completely changed how i perceived everything around me at that time in my life.
I completely broke from the life i had then, and went into an uncharted country. The rational world that up to that point had dominated me, turned into its neglected counterpart.
In short, i came to my senses and its instinctual and cyclical connection with nature.
The excerpt that now perfectly described what then happened to me came from Carl Gustav Jung. It hit me like a combined image of processes, feelings and thoughts. Here it is:
”In so far as the spirit is also a kind of ”window on eternity”… it conveys to the soul a certain influx divinus… and the knowledge of a higher system of the world, wherein consists precisely its supposed animation of the soul.”
Or to put it another way, the energy of my objective interest turned inward, to my senses and that awakened my inner, or psychic relatedness to both myself and to my world. My whole world became both rational and relational. I became aware of myself in a sense of being part of nature inside this past, that went far beyond myself as a single lifetime. And that this somehow, from now on, just had to be integrated into my life.
So by this quote I suddenly realised exactly what had happened to me. What had happened inside of me. Here it was formulated to me in another way, and before this happened to me, such things would have been impenetrable. Now, it was somewhat surprising to me, because Jung is an unbelievably thorough thinker and i can just about think myself out of a paper cup. But the underlying processes that he described confirmed what had happened to me, and made an absolutely clear image of what i went through at that time. I could never had come even close to be able think about my senses like that.
Anyways, at that moment i learned that as he was absolutely true to his experience, and that he was trying to mediate it as being a thinker of our being. And if one is really true to the flow of life as it passes through us, it will always be understandable if we negotiate it from within ourselves.
Our ability to understand what we are is not dependent on how we navigate. It is dependent on how true we are to the origin of our self when we move from our subjective state to an objective reality. That is also why I have always felt uneasy or uncomfortable with people who are repeatedly moving from one objective form of reality to the next. Because the only thing there, is just this formalised collective personality.
There is no self, no individual relationship to being.
Or once again:
So long as the self is unconscious, it corresponds to Freud’s super-ego and is a source of perpetual moral conflict. If, however, it is withdrawn from projection and is no longer identical with public opinion, then one is truly one’s own yea and nay. The self then functions as a union of opposites and thus constitutes the most immediate experience of the Divine which it is psychologically possible to imagine.
I would not use the word divine myself, but it really says something about the true force of nature that we are exposed to from the inside of our ancestral world.

My encounters with people depends on an inner connection. I am intimate first of all with myself. To be touched by you i need to be touched within. I listens to the effect of others within. If i am not connected within myself, or if each one within him or herself are not connected, there is not going to be any connection. My self will lack direction to being and to any kind of human intimacy. We will just experience absence, repression, distance and judgemental superficial separation of arguments into opposing extremes. Everything is going to be turned into rational arguments of moral opposites like good or bad. Or maybe clinical ones like what is ill and well. But mostly logical as in true and false mixed up with good and bad to become an infinite loop of arguments leading nowhere on what to accept or not.
There’s not going to be a real connection for me to any real personal experience since intimacy to its largest part has an intuitive dimension beyond the physical one of love and sexuality.
And if this is not just me, then there must be something wrong with most people in this world.
Just watch and listen.
Our normal is really not a good thing.

If one equates masculinity with objective interest, or make an analogy with it like with the wind. But of an internal kind, blowing around inside, and one is undifferentiated from it.
Like a child the ego is going to try to ride this wind, and we are going to be thrown around on it behaving like we were crazy without being able to stop. On this ride there is no real reflection, no inner context in relation to judgement, and no real connection to earth. Or to being. We just continue to behave like restless children trying to control the movements of this energy, or make it behave in certain ways.
At some point in life we have to learn to let it go, we have to release it because we understand that it has its own way and its own direction. We learn the hard way that our erratic behaviour comes from us trying to capture it. But since this is an impossible task and it will completely wear us out, we instead starts to listen to it trying to understand what it have to say. We even try to find out where it wants to go in itself.
And suddenly to this great and total confusion to us, it turns inward, and to earth. It moves there to create this relation to where it is all about relations. And this move comes with its own inherent morals. It is like an initial date that is suddenly turned into a relation, like a marriage. A union between that energy and to a kind of true relatedness. Its like we suddenly become physical beings in a metaphysical world.
And the world one has left behind becomes this one sided world of truly insane conceptual opposites.
A world that is really horrible to ever have been any part of.
Herein lies the very reason to the compulsiveness in my change.

More than 10 000 species go extinct each year. They are lost forever from life itself and will never appear again. This is something that happens on a daily basis almost entirely because of habitat loss and soil destruction as a result of our emissions of greenhouse gases, and from our exploitation of earth in terms of deforesting, farming, global urban expansion, mining, oil drilling, water pollution, oil sand extraction, etc.
Because all species live and interact with an ecosystem, that system will also suffer with more of its species lost when we change that system.
The dynamics of all life cycles comes from earth’s cover with soil, as thin as only one-two meters. This thin layer of soil is the foundation of all life. Every ecosystem dynamically interacts with it, and has a total reliability on its ability to host and maintain the constant regeneration of new life.
Life as we know it are completely dependent on it.
We can then discuss our impact, and our losses all we want.
This is where the change now occur. Those plants and animals are not coming back.
We are at a point in time where we are actually disrupting earths ability to create life.

200 years ago there were less than one billion humans living on earth. Between 1900 and 2000, the increase in world population was three times greater than during the entire previous history of humanity. The Earth now has close to 8 billion people.
At the same time in 1900, there were about 5000 cars in the world, and no trucks or buses. In 2010 there were about 1 billion 2 hundred million cars in the world emitting exhaust into the air.
And almost 8 billion people eat, use water, and produce waste and pollution in a way that has never been seen by anything in this scale before in earths entire history.
Not to forget that at the same time human exploitation of our natural resources supplying all those people also increases at the same levels. Up to 500 million tons of heavy metals, solvents and toxic sludge slip into the global water supply every year. In the developing world alone, as much as 70 percent of industrial waste is just dumped untreated into the rivers and lakes.
Our actions effects the earth in a way it has not met before. And this has just happened in the last 200 years of earths history.
From the scientific community’s point of view, there are significant disruptions in the Earth’s physical and ecological systems. And what they find that support a rapidly changing climate is not a perspective. Their results confirms that human‐induced climate change caused by human activities is occurring right now, It is not a question of if it is going to have an effect, it is happening right now. It is all about what the outcome of this effect will be for us. How it will change the earths organism. And where that will leave us in terms of the survival of life on earth.
We are actually already talking about our survival.

Christianity really is the religion of psychotic dads. People take pride in being tortured by fathers and treated like slaves to ”his” will. This is what most people in the western world are exposed to whether they know it or not. And they justify their actions in the world by how they themselves have been treated. Or they behave like subservient children who are accustomed to abuse.
No wonder the defensive subversiveness, the relation to life in fear and hopelessness. Or the opression of others, in trying to convert them to ideas and beliefs that belongs to someone else. We become completely ignorant to a bully that comes from our inside and is of metaphysical or psychological origin.

We call it a psychosis when people are completely siezed by their inside world.
What do we call the opposite?
When people are completely ignorant of their inner dialogue and are completely lost to a world full of ideas and social rules taken in a literal sense.
Normality??

In my world there have always been two separate sets of time operating simultaneusly.
They are often related to as profane time and sacred time, or cosmic time and historical time. Together they constitute a continuity of my being. Profane time is linear and has a beginning and an end. Sacred time is timeless, with no beginning, no end and no direction. I have always had a preference for the psychological aspects of sacred time. I have relied on it to guide me since it was from here that i felt that my being was given its real values. I was in it, and it was in me.
Everything linear was temporary. And the temporary aspects had its beginnings in sacred time as the origin i always felt myself close to. It was from there everything was created and it was from here everything was going to be recreated.
For a limited time, all that appears originates from this. Me, men, women, earth, stars, trees, birds, grass, vind. Everything.
But for some, this sacred time is just childhood. Nothing more. It ends there.
For me it has always been much, much more than that.

It suddenly dawned on me that the rational language and words of psychology has become the only acceptable way for an individual in our collective to mediate any of his or hers inner life, if he or she want to be taken as a serious witness to any form of order behind our individual experiences. Any other way is viewed upon as outdated and is going to be treated with suspicion, or it will be regarded as insubstantial.
It will even be ridiculed and considered naive.
But this is how to present subjectivity if we really want to get listened to, or want to be taken seriously. It is how we can try to enter that world from the inside. Not through any direct individual experience. You are not allowed to turn the world inside out.
Just bring any such subject up in a discussion, pay attention to how people react and first take a more imaginary and descriptive approach. Try to describe things in in your own words. Then change that by referring to psychology and the accepted wordings of this approach and everyone is suddenly going to feel much more comfortable.
The more impersonal you get the more comfortable they will feel.
It is really taking something heartfelt and sincere out of us as individuals in any given situation to do that. And it is even painful at times.
But we are going to get ourselves a new perspective on this small minority that we like to call individuality by reconnecting consciously to the world in this way. And maybe, just maybe, we can live without hitting everyone in the head with a hammer to see if we can get through to others in our own way.