we derive our actions from somewhere else

We are all witnesses to something inside of us from where we are receiving our experiences. It is in the midst of our being. And the I is not what is doing the transmitting to me from the impression of what I imagine.
It comes from another source, and it is handed to me to make me respond to the inside of a world to which we are also a part.
And it calls on me for an aesthetic response that has moral implications.
It is more like responding to the soul of the world.
This is what make me react in a different way from most, not having established this relation.