The only way we know how when we are young is that to mix up our psychic reflection with sexual attraction. We didn’t learn about it otherwise and it got mistaken as the force of life. So that became what we had for it. Our sexuality became a kind of pent up need for our inner reality. For what we needed, to be able to surrender to the forces of exaltation, euphoria and bliss that worked through us. We had nothing else because the psychic forces conveyed by our experiences could not contain impressions that deviated from, or threatened our habituated relationships and shared values. So sexuality became what made us allow ourselves to express what we experienced outside the social pressure. But its embrace only goes so far. Somewhere along the path of life, our psychic existence just have to separate itself from our sexual drive and start searching for a new direction by itself. Outside of our instincts but still very much aware of, and contained in our embodied existence. It is as if our psychic reflection was constantly accompanied by our instinctual urges. Maybe because we where not ready then, and maybe because the traditional outlet was not there. So that was how it found its way of expression since we are constantly thrown between these opposites within us. But if we don’t want to get bored out of our minds, we have to deviate from our previous attitude towards our selves and begin the transformation of our spontanaeous content and turn it into psychic reflection. Back to its primordial origin and to the powers behind our human behavior which lies beyond the control of our ego’s and the consciousness of the collectively governed mind. Otherwise, we are just ruining our lives as ignorant victims of the forces of our nature working on us from the inside out.