its probably me ..

When we choose to identify with an attitude, an idea, an opinion, or the image of ourselves that it creates for us, we also simultaneously create an enemy of its opposite. Our actions will provoke those around us to respond to the transmitted image of hostility to how we want to see ourselves. And if they defend themselves, it will generally be seen as evidence, not of our provocation, or attitude towards others, but of the right to see them as an enemy because they will question the identity that the made-up self-image behind our provocation conveys. It is then no longer about our relationship to ourselves, the unique personal reflection we carry within us of the psychic consciousness we share with everyone else in our own individual way. It’s about creating a self-image of our limitations, in which we are hemmed in, and abandoning that psychic consciousness that makes us what we are, so that we can unilaterally live up to that within our self-image that is the opposite of what we don’t want to be. To what constitutes how we conform to some of the general morals that suits our view of ourselves. We become our own worst critic in the image of ourselves. Or we will defend it by seeing its enemies in people and the world around us. But in the end it will be the world around us that will suffer from it.