Breaking free from the psychic sphere of conditioning that has shaped our early relationships up to a certain point in life is no small feat. At best, it has served us by granting us a state of belonging which provides us with a sense of security in social conventions behind an attitude of righteousness and faith in the upholding of society’s laws and rules, and condemn everything that does not conform to the customs and practices that control our conditioning in it. Whether it concerns individuals or groups living in it now or that have lived in it side by side for several generations. But what are we really driven to break free from by the challenge that forces us into an incredibly intense inner ordeal. For around us, we can simultaneously see what happens if we fail to do so. The pressure from within creates such an inner imbalance that we often have to compulsively live out our needs to change as our impulses make unpleasant interruptions in our otherwise impregnable attitude of the right kind of conduct. Without really realizing that it is the identification with the righteousness of our conditioning that we are trying to break away from, and the experience that we no longer belong to it, and thereby taking it upon ourselves to personify and answer for what is not permitted by the righteousness-based attitude. But that doesn’t mean we are bad, and that we have to personify the bad that conventionality bestows on us or anyone else. Often with good help from an uncomprehending and judgmental collective environment. Our conditioning can no longer assist us from within and exclusively be what guides us. We need to live through the tension that arises in our encounter with the opposite, that which questions our attitude in order to be able to formulate who we are in and of ourselves. If we cannot handle that tension and give in to it, it often follows that we not only violate social conventions but also the societal rules and laws that regulate them. We see ourselves as outside of them, and the ideals of righteousness that govern them. We can no longer see ourselves personifying the haughty one-sidedness it represents outside our inner person and without the psychic context and origin that we struggle with when trying to find our way back to the larger coherent and original sense of a whole. We all have it within us. But the majority of us will never change and will go to great lengths to try to appear worthy of the ideals of the common good in the belief that we are thereby always just good through and through. Which will contribute to the fact that the some people around them, out of pure self-preservation, if we are still young or psychologically immature, compensate for this by personifying what is rejected and question the content of the righteous attitude. Many will see themselves as inadequate, deviant and helplessly inept, which makes them personify it behind an provocative, hostile, or indifferent attitude that is derogatory towards both themselves and to others. Both are however a perspective that starts from how we choose to relate to the absolute foundation of our being. It is a relationship that is not determined by words and opinions which condition the connection and communication with our inner person in its psychic environment, but by a deeper relationship to the authenticity and inner stillness that is absolutely decisive for our ego and fundamental in the ongoing communication it has with our inner being.