It doesn’t matter where we place our original sense of wholeness. We will always experience it either as a loss of ourselves or as a dependency on where we place it, as a personal imperative desire for fulfillment from another party. From the outside, we become burdened by the impossible load imposed on us by someone else. Whether it is a person, a political cause, a religious or philosophical belief. The primordial sense of our lost totality is there. It is this numinous inner quality that is given to us as children. The demands, and the expectations that follow from our loss of it, are terrible. In fact, this is our transpersonal basis for personal evil. As a consequence, we do not reflect the I-ness of the existing shared connection we have of ourselves, between our individual sense of separateness, and the objective whole that is all our relations original experience of this wholeness. We just transfer it in the naive expectation that it will be fulfilled by someone or something else. We habitually try to control and dominate other people’s relationship between them and themselves. Only to maintain the view of a collective consciousness where everything is commonly believed to be a wonderful personal experience of the shared interior of the world as a mother in oceanic bliss. This is more than evident in people’s use of stimulants to self-medicate against the effects of the experiences we have of our separation from it, and the terrifying experiences that we initially have of ourselves in relation to a real and authentic relationship to nature, both in an inner and an outer sense.