It is in the assortment of elements which have remained as our discharged feeling-toned energies within us, in our experiences, and regardless of age, where our thoughts, imaginations, and habits, are created by the encounters we have with our primordial ancestors; It is with them we are created as an energy of its own.
As an association of reocurring constellations of individual energy. And a connection that makes us what we are in the essence of what has always been.
Kategori: Natur
Dealings with origins
It is like our past ancestral experiences of inner life have left this original deposits of energy behind in us. And during the encounters we have had with that origin, the energy discharged have left a record inside a chain of reference for us to be used in the encounters followed by this first one, from which all the others also originates.
They re-create themselves in our being, and beyond. As images, energy tones, and in all the actions our own encounters with them will imprint on us.
They are always there.
The effects of life
Every one of us are both descendants to our ancestors as we are ancestors to our descendants. What we do here and now will have an affect on them both, because we are them. We embody them.
If we don’t take care of the effects our collective life has on them now, this is what it’s going to be.
It does not go anywhere.
It is us. Our life.
Memories and the mind
We can derive who we are from any combination of collective identity: sex, race, social class, vocation, nationality, or religion.
But what we are also derived from, is our ancestral memory. Of that which is encoded in the dna as the part of us just being humans.
We are also descendants to the reality behind the imaginations we have. Its not a physical thing. Its the memory we have of encoded identity.
And we are part of that mind too.
The descendants of being
It is about my basic understanding of reality.
Our memory is brought into the present now, as is our vision of the future. The today is given to us here and now. By both our past and our tomorrows. It is where we are. Envisioned by a distant past and brought to us as presence to our timeless being. We are of this reality to our mind, where existence itself is that continuously unfolding past alongside present events inside of our recreated imaginarium of beingness.
And we are more of a descendant to our being than we are of something of its content. It is right here the potency of our being is wedded into the memory of its origin. And it is also where our ancestral past genetic experience of being human is our perpetual recurring individual repetition of existence.
This is were we go for help, and were we get some guidance.
About gender
There is no doubt i am of an androgynous entity. This is regardless of any view i might have on actual gender, or on any conviction anyone may come up with to defend gender stereotypes. Physical appearance do not apply here. Speaking of myself, i took on the gender of my default orientation. And the influence coming from this choosing, was that my inner life was birthing a feminine, or opposite identity as compensation for doing this. My mother naturally became her first carrier. And her affection is what later gave me what i needed in life to be able to be open to my experiences on the nature of my being.
If we experience a conflict in here, it is inside of us. We are that conflict. And we are always running a risk to others to make the world our theatre of war.
It is what happens when we bring it outside.
more on beingness
Behind every conviction we have, there is a tyrannical convict of disrespect for our being.
Its not belief, its knowledge
There is another kind of knowledge. A knowledge of being. And it cannot be transferred from one person to another. It has to be relived by us individually as we move further and further into life.
As it is a process of this being, it has nothing to do with the imagination of any organised religion. My imagination does not work that way. Its a different kind of process. Its more about having a sense of creation. Of beingness. How to relate to it, and how it relates to this earth.
No words of any conviction can make this any justice. Its from where we act. Its from where we act as moral human beings. I have no need to turn this knowledge into a conviction. Convictions just turn us into pretentious pricks.
The world we live in
We all have a unique and individual expression of our being embedded in our dna. And some part of it is also inherited from a cultural conditioning behaving as a connection to a cultural past. When it unfolds in our spontaneous expression of being it will have its own pre-established way of presenting itself as imagination.
Its in our blood. And it is really not in the physical world. The struggle we have with this are within ourselves.
It also constitutes an individual form of danger when we by a collective, by corporations or governments, without a connection to our being allow ourselves to live out all kinds of interior worlds of imaginative self interest onto other people. We will then become a danger both to people, and to the world.
What we are doing to each other then, to this otherness, is trying to mirror and replace the within in other people, with that of our own, and then try to morally justify our actions by the submission of other people. As if a loud voice or forcefulness was an argument in itself.
And if they do not agree to this. We bring our war to them.
This will now become our world.
About collective regression
When we were forced to believe in what was written down, and not in what we hear and we can see, we were also forced to separate our physical life from the experience of our transpersonal life. Our imagination were taken from us, and we got driven out of our selves and forced to replace it with someone else’s perception of being. It is still happening to us. We are still living with this collective threat on individuality everyday.
The doubt this creates is what separate us from our beingness, and that is what make people so confused.
Who owns imagination?
The reluctancy to change comes from our unwillingness to give up any existential ownership of individual imagination.
The father of our civilised world
Imaginary speaking, I find myself living in a society which is compelled to act this figure in the cloud out with the ruling it has over everybody´s apprehension. They don´t seem to know it, but they are supporting him by continuing his old formal character, making his outworn presence felt in everyday life in terms of rules and regulations, in dogmas, and in a distant dead behaviour coming out of it. They are upholding a system of absence in their lives by trying to fill themselves up with a sense of responsibility and duty towards social and religious convention. Which they also force onto others. They believe in some principles of normality. Not in the experience of transpersonal reality. And nobody seem to be questioning this cloud figure rulings there. They just see themselves as a single part of his organisational maintenance.
It is almost incomprehensible what this is doing to them, and to our environment.
His tyrannical madness is what makes them all crazy.
The Great Mother
The male end of our inner balance is on the emphasis of the product by focused, self-disciplined energy to do, to shape, to specify, to name and define. The female end is on the process, and on the experience of being. Appearantly, the male end is also the current ideal to which a one-sided collectivity aspires.
Of everything associated with femininity, being is perhaps the most misunderstood since the relation to being is defined through developing a close relationship to nature, to other people, and to life. Its about our capacity to be receptive to our lives in an embodied way. Here we listen to our within, to another kind of creativity, and to our own inner sense of things. She is our crucible and our liberation from a world of sufferings. It is also by her we get our first lesson of life through our mother.
Our planet earth also carries all life in a similar way as a Great Grand Mother being to us. She is then that part of us that honors the nature of our inner life in relation to earth and our individual way of being, regardless of how different we might appear with our behaviour to the collective and its principles of normality.
This male and female balancing is a living reality right here and now, a presence were being is the neglected part of our conciousness, it is suppressed by the preferred static ideals so many of us seem to rely on. Together with a reluctancy to change.
So we just force ourselves to stay busy. Searching all over the place for this being, acting like we are completely out of our minds.
Restoring a landscape
Mother nature
She is the growth and eternal renewal of all life. She carries and nurture the source and generative power of life. She embeds it and cares for its forms coming to life. It is the very spirit of life which is brought to her for her to carry. And she is what makes it all possible, because she brings whatever shape given to her, its physical body. When they are given to her she will nourish them. She will provide for them, and she will care for their wellbeing. Without her there would be nothing, our physical life will not exist at all. Life will no longer have its beingness. It will disappear from the source of individual life.
Life will be deprived of its purpose, it will have no meaning.
Citizens of being
Can we allow ourselves to live our life from the inside out, following the nomadic life of within and its impulses. Or do we choose to live our life from an imaginary outside mirror constantly judging us by some principle of normality that we are not?
This is the inside war of our individuality. Here is my battleground and my rage.
It is a terrible war of balance. A fight for my life.
Dad in the cloud
I can never get into the image of a dad in a cloud. I don´t have that in me. I can understand the need for it. Why some need that kind of authority. An existential dad acted out by someone else, or to clothe a form of abstraction of it with a human form. But for me that it is just a confusion. A displacement of myself. Of my in between non-placed source and me. I cannot agree to this kind of replacement. It would leave me defenceless to a world that has lost it.
I can only watch with horror how dad in the cloud deals with this world.
About our own being
The world we call reality is what we put into it from the experience of our being. It is the mirror world we walk in. And it is our relation to being that creates its intensity and value. The alternative is to succomb to some people wanting to drive us out of ourselves and replace us with themselves.
We can let others make us be to them, what they want to see about themselves in us, in their need to control others from being separate individuals of this being in themselves.
But it is our very own connection to being which is at stake here. And it is precisely this that makes a difference to the world.
If there is one thing we can change to make any change for the better, it is this. We can become a container for our own being.
But most people seem to have lost this connection, they don´t listen anymore, or they don´t have the courage to learn its language anew.
And this is what makes them all crazy.
About authority
We seem to have mixed up senses about what the meaning of power and the meaning of authority is. Power is the sun, the growth of nature. Authority is the interconnection of all life cycles beyond individual life. Authority is that existential knowledge which cannot be transferred from one person to another. That which has to be learned anew by each and everyone of us, by ourselves, alone.
Authority is respect for that which will help us on our way.
Modern Humans are Walking Dead
About collective awareness
When we identify with our collective awareness we also tend to make statistics of ourselves. We begin to adjust to, and live by a principle of normality, and everything not behaving according to this principle of statistics, must be abnormal. We dehumanise both ourselves and others from the spark of individuality. We become a threat to commonality and therefore this must be diagnosed and ”treated” with. We must make a statistical example of this aberrancy, of this threat from individuality to commonality.
Whatever this collective identification might be, or consist of, it is this face of awareness we use which make us generalise. We begin to see everything as something common and we depersonalise everyone and everything. We become pretentious pricks.
But its proper use should rather be to use this face of awareness to catch our sparks.
Because here, the strangest thing occur. It not only makes us feel unique, it also connects us to something that is common to us all. And this have nothing to do to a principle of normality.
It is just the living experience of what we are.
Where is the battleground?
Everyone is fighting a battle. To fight it out outside, or to follow one who does, is avoiding it in a way that makes others suffer it for you.
The battles we stage out there, are all inside.
Life cycles and tradition
All life come in cycles. Most of what we call science includes a study of these cycles.
So what about the cycles of man?
We live in relatively short cycles. As a comparison, a pine tree may live up to 800 years.
For us to preserve something of our inner being beyond the time of individual cycles, we must have some sort of tradition. Early traditions enforced our individual sense of perception outside of time. They offered people a set of existential instructions from our ancestors, passed over to the descendants about the development of individuality and its extension above all cycles. Because if we ever was to loose these set of instructions, we would only know and live in this present one. And we would have no knowledge about anything beyond it. We will loose our connection to the cycles of life existing all around us. And we will be confused about our being here.
So, if we get lost in our own cycle, and in our relation to the cycles of life, we will not know how to receieve it’s teachings, how our own cycle gives us its instructions. We cannot hear the voice.
The connection will be lost.
And we will become repetitive in our way of life no matter the need for us to change.
We will become governed by the circles of commerce, with the latest products, trends, and with the repetition of our behaviour in the latest news that never change.
Who we are?
If we define our personality through our belonging to a collective or a group, or an organisation, or a country, and then only by what we do accept as that, we give in to a world were our sole reality becomes defined by what we are not.
We are going to be a people of constant personal neglection, and collective criticism.
And since we then have to redefine ourselves constantly to the ever changes of life, we tend to hold on to only a preferred and limited set of collective beliefs for a personality. This is how we want others to see us. But what we do not accept here, the restrictions we put on ourselves, will be what others must learn about us to be able to reach us. We do not allow it in any other way. This is what we are going to make other suffer with us. And since all we do from now on must be good, it will never occur to us, or even enter our mind, that we are the personal cause of any bad things that we inflict upon the world, both individually and as a collective. Because there can be no moral responsibility now, everything we do can only be of good.
There is no longer that being inside us as in human being. We have not come to that yet.
We have lost our morals.
Look around.
Globalisation
Globalisation is the word we use with corporations and banks to get to exploit every local resource available at no cost, to maximise the profit where it is not responsible to no one, anywhere.
It is the ultimate disconnection from earth.
About relationships
As humans we must never break the relationship to being. Being is always, it is our relationship to life. We are descendants of being and will become ancestors in layers of this relationship.
There is no blame or guilt in this, it is a kind of personal responsibility.
Breaking this connection is lack of moral itself. A breaking of our connection to place.
And to earth.
About good and evil
If we are lucky with our parents we get to grow up in the garden of eden. We will get close to earth.
But at some point we have to leave it. And we have to bring some of it with us because it is us.
Again, if we are lucky, we get initiated by our parents or some other elder when its time.
To be initiated will make us bring eden with us, that which have been given to us before we got dressed up in the generalisations of a collective personality and become that narrowness of a cultivated ideal.
Even without luck we have to find eden anew. It is not a question of good and evil.
It is both. A condition of life.
Everyday we can watch what happens when some part is preferred for the other. Our ego loose sight of right and wrong, and starts looking after itself in a forced, one sided and opinionated way. What once was eden has now turned against us.
Our moral sense is lost and we become num to the views of others and to life. We will try to force our one sidedness onto others, and pride ourself of becoming insensitive, primitive and ugly.
Without this moral conditioning from life itself, we will become a danger to life.
And believe me,
by being that person, we will also make ourselves a bloody bore.
Whose reality?
Looking at this world, I also have to recognise i live i a world that is completely existential.
No words cant do it justice. And it doesn´t matter how much i try to document it, or try to reach it by my rationality. It is existential. It creates my sense of existence out of this non-rational experience. And as such it is also beyond me. But I am very much inside it. It is my living present. The right here and right now.
A container of what we make of our reality. All ideas we try to create out of it.
We even call it reality.
The quest of morality
When constantly being hammered by the conflict of public moral code and the contents of morality in itself, i am painfully questioned of what is psychologically valid in a personal sense.
About politics
All politics are about moral conflicts. And there are no general answers effective in moral conflicts.
They are individually suffered and no preaching can touch it.
If there is one single thing that reflects our world back to us, making it an image of ourselves and blackening out the rest.
It is this.
Democracy and how to go about it.
Maybe it is our parliament, and our gouvernment itself who need some adjustment.
What we see right now is that one part is missing in that equation. When considering the present situation, it is obvious something in our gouverning is not there, the parliament do not really answer to no one. The people they are responsible for is not really there, so they don’t have any real counterpart.
Just think about that for a moment.
Because right now they just answer to themselves. And this is not good democracy.
Who is taking care of our wealth. Were is our leadership of wealth. Who is taking care of our water. Our nature. Who is looking after our common good. Obviously, wealth is very much dependent on how new money first should be spent into the economy. But there is no true counterpart in parliament for that.
Our leaders badly need this. They should have to answer before the leader of wealth to be able to make good decisions for the people.
Right now, our parliament here in Sweden, as in many other countries, are divided among themselves, and arguing full time about who should be its leader. How parliament should be led, and in what direction. And with our media fully occupied by reporting on this disagreement, good decisions going out the window.
And this is currently built into the system by the absence of a real working counterpart.
For that to change, we need them to answer to someone on the basis of a working democracy, and that should be accomplished through a leadership of wealth.
With such a counterpart, our parliament then have to change its priorities to be only of concern to the wealth and wellbeing of its people.
We should even consider having a pre election on candidates where only women can vote. And after that we can all vote on the outcome of their election.
Our ambassador on Island suffered heavy criticism for it, but he is not too far from the truth, intuitively thinking democracy is being ”dismantled” by its current constitution in Sweden.
By thinking about it anew, we may actually adjust our parliament closer to its original vision, and maybe, we can then make our parlament the true working heart of democracy we want it to be.
So now you know who you are?
There is this a kind of realm for itself. Not out there, nor in here, yet both. It is not really a reality of a concrete kind. It is something that is happening to us, making my experiences mine, and also a bridge and an entrance to a psychic reality common to us all were we meet.
Its obvious entrance is through nature. Without it we would not be here.
This is illustrated with warmth by Oren Lyons in his story on being high on learned knowledge and its distant rationality coming back home after graduation.
About indigenous people
There is one thing we can learn from our indigenous people.
It has nothing to do with becoming them, mimicking or stealing their culture, or expropriate intellectual rights. It is about their presence, and to be able to change.
It is listening to ourselves to get a sense of the world.
To really sense the true force of its living inside of us.
What reality
Most people today live in only one single perpetual reality, measured and explained, beyond the perceived one.
How can we meet?
About an inner calling
A wonderful way to handle knowledge.
In times of a society in stress there is a call from a past mind latent in the present one to pay attention to its content.
We don´t have any elders in our society, just youth.
A base of reflexion
Daily life
Our actions are episodes constantly spinning out of our sleeping ancestors dreaming.
Do you think that’s air you’re breathing?
It is not we who imagine, but we who are imagined.
The mind is in the imagination rather than the imagination in the mind.
– James Hillman –
Memoria
Tank, load the jump program.
Reality as my fiction
Am i not a being whose reality comes wholly from my imagination and the beliefs that imposes.
Isn’t this what I perform and name with the mask of my behavior.
I am enacting and miming a reality that is completely a fiction. And this is were the drama and horrors we create and call everyday life comes from.
It is also what we call news.
About leadership today
Being directed by, and unaware of the patterns of behaviour that flow from the organizing structure of a certain collective itself, rather than the individuality of its members,
is getting us very close to how people have come to appreciate the political, financial and corporate leadership of today.
About power
When we as individuals confuse knowledge with power, we magically exaggerate our importance in relation to our self with the unconcious capacity for wisdom.
This creates the true sense of the word evil.
History is an attitude
I am caught in the present history as a problem of attitude between father time and eternal youth.
Indigenous knowledge from the north
”There is knowledge that cannot be acquired through anyone else. It cannot be transferred from one person to another. Every single person has to recognize it anew within himself. And by himself go through the trials that surround it.”
Smaug
The expired father
Imaginary speaking, we find ourselves acting out this figure of a heavenly father ruling over our apprehension. We are supporting a sky god character that has long since expired by continuing his formal character and making his outworn presence felt in everyday life in terms of rules and regulations, in dogmas and in dead ritual behaviour. We are upholding a system of belief by trying to fill us up with a sense of responsibility and duty towards social and religious convention. To something of the past. But by questioning his ruling, we might become something more than just a single part of his organisational maintenance. We have other ways to experience inner life as individuals.
We can actually become sensitive enough to become humans.
About public acknowledgement
Like all kind of extremists we seem to believe that we need public acknowledgement to exist. And then we get stuck in an outgrown historical setting of ideology and religious beliefs trying to make up our minds. Thats why people knowingly or not, tends to shy away from politics, old -isms and organised religion. People don’t need that to have a living connection to themselves today. Authorities, coming from the outside, from society, tradition, convention and scriptures, with its habitual and literal beliefs no longer provide any correspondence to our immediate personal experience of the here and now. People are looking elsewhere to find the answers to their needs. They are listening to the awakening voices from inside themselves.
Spring
It is spring. Our wagtail couple arrived today.
The origin of place
The effect of an earthly place on my senses is wedded to the memory of its origin.
The sense of place
When we are on vacation, or watching a mesmerising sunset, hiking or spending our free time outdoors, we get a sense of being, of being close to nature and of belonging to a place.
That sense is also what is lacking if we do not balance up our rational mind with this experience of true identity to land in our daily life.
It is a poor substitute to have a disconnected rational view of patriotism, or an ideology’s false sense of land, replacing the true personal experience of an inner sense in relation to a place. That inner sense is what we share as individuals with everyone else. Our true identity is not any combinations of collective identities like sex, race, social class, vocation, nationality, or religion. What we really share is that inner closeness to place, a true sense of being it. Of nature in ourselves. If we disconnect ourselves from that personal identity which is derived from this one context, we also miss out on having a true relation to land. We will start to look at it in a one sided rational way, and in rational concepts of ownership as in ideology, nationalism or religion. Or just as some infinite resource to fuel the growth of market economy with.
A consequence of this is that we are loosing our sense of being in ourselves. Of being in a true relation to a place. We are losing out on the essence of our relations to each other. And to life.