an occupation in the sense of places to focus the mind during the work of psychic reflection

I have used eidetic forms deliberately when describing meditative experiences on a personal level, as it has become clear to me that sometime from about my first year of school and up to and including my early teens, a difference arises between our experiences of people around us, and the ways in which we have to relate to our emerging relation to our inner person and his contrasexual counterpart in the encounter we have with them within us. The incompatibility that arises between us in our relation to the eidetic forms and their supression by social conditioning, and between them and our inner parental pair, still anchors them as eidetic figures within us after we have separated them from people outside us. A kind of self-observation then emerges within us in relation to them where we begin to develop individual relationships to them that are independent of their previous external context. But if we are not provided with a functional individual outlet for our eidetic forms in relation to our meditative life, they remain in their primordial psychic relationship to us. From there they will influence us in a way that confuses them with people around us because just as we did as children we perceive everything we experience therein as one in the whole from which we later develop our psychically reflective relationships to them. Somewhere in our adolescence we have left the parental communication that previously carried the connection that created belonging and the contexts with it, which we have with its center which not only unites all opposites through the insights that follow from how it meets our experiences, but also guides us. This will then happen in direct relationship with them and not as before, mediated on a cultural basis through our inner parental pair seen through external people and dependent on an external context. What happens if we fail to establish a relationship with them is that we begin to relate to the structural content of our psyche and to our bodies as its vessels by intellectual means through ideas and concepts, instead of the genuine and direct experientially based relationships we have with others and ourselves on a meditative basis. Our inner sense of coherence and unity is instead intellectually spread out everywhere and our impressions and impulses seek all sorts of different ideas and opinions to calm our inner disorder, which in turn only further increases an already terrible confusion. Without us achieving any real contact with our own psychic and meditative reality to find the peace of mind that we create in a peaceful state of bodily calm as its vessel.