all our accumulated actions together equal this “I” at the conventional level

There is always a tension and conflict in having the relationship between the concentrated source of constant renewal and coordinated focus of realization that we communicate with within ourselves also in relation to our surroundings, together with its counterpart which encompasses it in a larger context as a natural psychic whole and in a composite sense of belonging with nature itself in all its parts. Because together they form a union and opposition to how we mentally try to exemplify and limit our person through overly restrictive and loosely composed contexts of knowledge, which form standards that are held too general to also be able to function and apply to our entire personality, and those aspects of it that act on us regardless of the conscious control we try to have over it. Such a perspective cannot support an objective standpoint which relativizes our experiences and brings us closer to the meditative correspondence we have to the independent impressions, the flow of thought and impulses which independently arise between us and ourselves when our senses interact with the world around us. Even more so when we do not include our sixth sense. The sense organ that we, in addition to sight, smell, hearing, taste and touch, associate with the body, which constitutes the flow of thoughts that act independently on us in the sense that we are not their true origin. We are not the origin of a sound in itself, or a taste. We experience them. As we do with all of them. What I call myself, or refer to as my personality, is then the sum of the experiences I have had of how my objective psychic actors have been able to interact with, and how these characteristics have been received, while adapting to the environment they find themselves in. All forms of visualization of this greatly facilitate our personal relationships to the raw, unprocessed experience we have of them. But to make it subject to an exclusion of how we individually shape our relationships to their origins within ourselves, without our own personal experiences of their original sources, is simply psychologically destructive. So it takes immense courage to face our own unprocessed experiences without transforming ourselves into those who do not allow others to have theirs in relation to themselves. Which is the conflict we all carry within us and often stage so that others can deal with it for us, and which we then can blame them for that we have not yet resolved within ourselves.