A word I often heard about me, which was addressed to me many times throughout my childhood, which I suddenly remembered a couple of days ago. It was now brought to my attention again by my late mother. For some time I have been thinking a lot about how we ourselves view our inner forces and how our own way of suppressing them then limits them in others, and conversely how others affect that relationship with ourselves. An expression my mother, grandmother and great-grandmother used when I turned to them inspired, or came up with things that I intensely wanted to convey, or when I went off into the forest or out on the river for myself was ”It’s liikutuksia”. “He has liikutuksia”. I didn’t think much of it at the time. That’s how it was. Sometimes it was an epithet for my need to spend time with myself, and sometimes also because my intensity was becoming laborious and intrusive to them. But I was thus allowed to listen to it. It was my second attendance. Or noaidevouhta, but they used this later more accepted word for the older Sami experience of “the calling,” as I have learned now. It also means that you express yourself differently, that you are a geaiddut, a vision changer. I think that what is meant by this today is, that there is a tendency to defend ones integrity with sudden almost inexplicable outbursts of anger, like a bear. Which may explain some of the occurrences of bears in my dreams. But also having a need of a withdrawal at times that makes you invisible and disappear. Such a person could also change the direction of others attention and conjure up a psychic perspective to life, to the content of that space which is not always visible to the naked eye. Those who had this where the ones that had their attention on that psychic consciousness we share which is the mind of the within in the without. It is as common today as it was in the past, although we use different terms to describe it now.