outside of the perfectionistic standards that makes us feel foolish

In the beginning, we are as permissive to ourselves as our surroundings allow us in their limitation of themselves, which is what creates a cohesive personality for them that will then constitute the circumscription that determines how we relate to our inner parental couple. In the symbolic language of the Sami, Maderattje and the psychic flow of consciousness he refer us to, embodied by our fathers, as the spontaneous thought that is our within in all of that which is in the without, and Maderakka, the mediating function our mothers have to the Great Mother, our physical communion with nature of which we are a part that is experienced through her. For our own sake, as we develop our inner person towards them we will do almost anything to get around that first restriction of ourselves, to find that background our inner parent figures convey to us. Which many of our biological parents, for various reasons, learned to protect themselves from by formalized collective behavior. But it also means that we learn not to listen to the voice of our individual conscience. So we end up in a world of opposites. Where we, through our ego roles, try to find a personally composed whole. We make ourselves important, authoritative, know-it-alls, excessively caring and try to become irreplaceable, even martyrs in the artificial personalities we create for ourselves. All because we, with our relation to the inner person, in Sami Radien-giedde and Radien-neita, seek real and genuine relationships with both people around us, our physical connection to earth, and with the inner figures that formulates the psychic reference that is the basis for how we relate to each other. Something our false, or substitute ego related personalities cannot achieve for us. Instead, it makes us feel ashamed of what feels authentic to us, and a sense of being wrong to allow ourselves to be driven in part by the forces acting on us in the flow of the constant psychic energy that surrounds us and in which we live all the time. We are really capable of doing almost anything to recreate that all-encompassing sense of primal affirmation that we experienced from everyone at the beginning of our early relationships with the outside world. If we don’t succeed, because we mix the person within with a substitute without in a material sense. We fall back into the roles we have developed as a compensation for our original inner connection, and we then conflate our intersubjective relationships with the behaviors and attitudes we created in our adaptation to them.