we experience it as an inherited ancient longing

In our self-meditative inner center there is a balance and a formal functional inner organization and order as opposed to that which is disharmonious and in a separate incompatible primordial state of chaos and confusion. In the early development of our consciousness, we gradually replace this chaotic primordial state with a self-meditative state of inner equilibrium and in a balance between them in the tension that arises between these parties which then remain for our entire life within us as a pair of opposites between consciousness and the temporal, and the timeless content of the psyche. From this state then arises our embodiment of authenticity, truth and justice. It is not difficult to understand what happens here if we expose the experience of this early consciousness to an external influence of codependent emotional states, in its need to find approval, satisfy personal needs and strengthen a failing self-worth through a still vulnerable relationship to a developing self-meditative inner center. Not by being an example for it, but by holding it hostage. Such an approach to it undermines its relationship with our inner parents and their early importance to us as carriers of the psychic vessels we need them for, to safely learn to transform inspiration into insight and psyche into a container for its activity and conscious realisation. In classical terms, finding the meditative state between spirit and soul, which naturally arise when they diminish in relation to it or help us if they are no longer available to us, they may also regain their original underlying inner meaning, if they are repressed or convey a feeling of psychological absence and rejection instead of inner support. If this connection becomes broken we will find ourselves in an alienated situation without access to the first or original abstract pair acting on us beyond them, and to which they relate us early in our self-meditative development. But if our inner self-meditative capacity for psychic reflection has not been completely ruined, we will find our inner person and its partner in their relationship to us as messengers between us and all of them there.