the worrisome character of our autonomous personality

We are often involved in three kinds, or levels of mercurial beings in our initial experience of life as a duality. First there is the figure of the rascal, the fool within us, who is harmless but also naïve. He comes to our aid when we are not yet able or mature enough to confront the psychic energy underlying our reality. Then we have the trickster. The breaker of rules and the one always crossing our conceptual boundaries of definition in which we try to confine them. He questions the rigid boundaries of society and calls into question our fundamental assumptions about the way the world is organized. He has discovered the existence of this threshold in life, and use it to his personal benefit. If the fool is more of a personal and childish nature, the trickster is of collective origin. Then we have the terrifying dark one. The shadow figure of my dreams. The true initiator of our psychic reality, of its visibility and the embodiment of its intense moral testing. In contrast to the others, he is always absolutely serious. We identify ourselves with either one of them from time to time, learning about them in relation to our life as we come about to express them. But this petrifying one, and the horrible anxiety he provokes in our resistence to his psychic occurence in us, its annihilating directness, and our rejection of the humility his presence invokes, is something else. Most people prefer to let the first two loose, since they are generally more accepted, and become engulfed in self-pityness and cling themselves to the surface of the world instead of accepting this third one’s reality in us, and never really acknowledge that something else also speaks to us from within and below, with the intention of being absolutely serious about our psychic reality. Inner pairs of opposites that simultaneously appear together with them are, for example, the saint and the villain, the martyr and the savior, when we try to come to terms with our humility and our basic human condition in the face of these psychic forces and their influence on our minds. If we completely reject the presence of this primordial dark one. We will lack content. We are humans but we lack being. There is nothing to relate to in us or in people around us. We don’t have the ability to experience it yet. It is easy to become cognitively disfigured by habitually adapting to the world and its lack of psychic depth in relation to people and to our nature when we are still children and dependent on the practical and emotional support of our inner parents, in their relation to our surroundings. But on the other hand, if we identify ourselves with the inviolability he represents, we become excessively realistic. Which forces us to be able to absorb the experiences we encounter but without the inner structure we need to be able to process its content, and the meaning he brings to us in an embodied sense of the underlying reality by forcing us to confront him as something primordial of our psychic existence.