the elusive and evanescent psychic reality of our disembodied being

To meditate is to go back to our childhood state’s relationship to the original whole we felt we were a part of but as adults to find the inner balance that makes us mature in it as human beings. We experience it both as an inner setting and a place. When we get there having gone through the difficulties, its cognitive distortions of awareness, the things that hurt us and the obstacles we find on our way there, we end up in the personification and embodiment of the wholeness as a psychic vessel, or soul again, which alternately and in its primeval unchanging parts interacts with us there on its own terms, separated from our confusion of them in external sources. We end up in a psychological state where our inner person will be experienced independently of our outer senses and the body’s manifestation of them. Instead, we begin to participate in the impressions whose background we can only identify through references to the external relationships they have had when they were charged with psychic energy. Focusing on the energy contained in those experiences we find that its content also shapes the information we then formulate in our relationship to the different parts of the greater whole our inner person experience itself as a participant of. Both together with and beyond our inner family as we also encounter a guiding principle that is ever present in this greater whole as its self-meditative creative source which unites all opposites in the vessel that our original wholeness come to embody. In this sense, we become a latent relation to nature’s own inner spontaneous, self-organizing and inspiring chaordic center, and the information that its energy wants to transmit to us and initiate us to, and we find ourselves participating in as a connection to the underlying original instructions we find within us and in everything, everywhere around us and which guide us in our psychic development to become human, not just a shell, but a human with being, a human being.
A quote I found from Jung illustrates this aptly. ‘Once we have freed ourselves from the prejudice that we have to refer to concepts of external experience or to a priori categories of reason, we can turn our attention and curiosity wholly to that strange and unknown thing we call spirit.
That is, to the experience of inspiration. Which is at the center of our perception of this wholeness acting on us as a vessel with that quality which direct us to its content as an inspirer, teacher and guide. I mean, isn’t it quite a common thing to talk to yourself and to reflect on what is coming out of it. In any case, it is something that has occupied me all my life. This is a way of formulating an inner maturity in relation to it.