Much has been said about being initiated too late or not at all into the social and conventional habits of our societies and of which our psychic life is supposed to be a part, and from whose psychic roots we emerge. But very little about how we are prematurely forced to abandon our sense of belonging to an original larger whole and suffer the transformation of being exposed to a society and its conventions all too soon. Before we are mentally ready to suffer through what it means to us to be an individual in its own right that is partly separated from the collective attitude of a society that is also disconnected from this primordial wholeness. Many of us, out of pure self-preservation, have abandoned themselves and the overall sense of security and what that means to share the self-organizing balance that exists in everything around us, and its directions, to instead adapt in different ways to an attitude towards what is of generally appreciated and accepted value which belongs to the conventional way of being. In this sense individuality becomes an empty presence, disconnected from the nature interacting with us from within, with perfectionistic ideals completely lacking its inherent opposites which then becomes the evil an environment affected by its one-sidedness has to bear. We experience this premature compelling influence to abandon our relationship to the balance and nature of this greater whole as a psychic threat, as an abuse of our psychic integrity and as a narcissistic exploitation through its denial in people around us. Not in an involved recognition. We feel it through people’s need to distance themselves from its meaning, and in our natural fear of the conflict this reality creates within us. It is in this sense i like to see the natural order of an initiation as its opposite, and more like a premature expulsion, where too many of us are forced through it too soon without being able to integrate the fundamental meaning that this separation has between us and the whole of which we are a part. Without it we are just thrown out to people and to a world to which we lack a psychic reference, to try to face the overwhelming influence it has on us for ourselves.