suffering the light of realization

When we allow our inner person access to us while opening ourselves to his other irrational and uncivilized half, we will discover the absolute relationship that side of him has with nature, and the living identification he has with everything in it when it communicates itself as a spiritual vessel in all its relationships. For that half of him it means to be a part of all that is, as forces of the same kind as he is made of. But his opposite, the part of him which acts as the messenger of our inner self-regulating center, and which unites all opposites, is that which will bring them together independently of time in an external bodily sense. They turn into our personal whole, a collection of impressions we have of the ordering source acting on our inner messenger. Expressed and lived by the exalted other. The difference between them is their impact on us. One of them is completely related to nature itself, and is a complete inclusion of it and on the same basic moral terms. The other is entirely connected with the timeless origin of psychic life, and with the recurring and emergent representation it evokes in everything and which is constantly modified and conditioned by time but which at the same time exists entirely unaffected, and independently of its repetition and diversity. The animistic qualities we attribute to shamans in their dealings with our personal psychic layers are thus intertwined with the quest for enlightenment we find in Buddhist monks. The path to enlightenment in this way forces us to also go through, and become united with our embodied nature if it is going to be able to become a vessel for our path towards the greater whole. Both express deep compassion for all life as bodily vessels and soul migration as the recurrence of the enduring psychic qualities of the personality beyond the surface of the ego, but in two different ways. But for both, the self-organizing totality of our inner center is the moral guide that shows us the way, whether seen as a psychic abstraction or as the underlying force within which we are and to which we have a dependent relationship, as to a conscious biological self-regulating center of the world seen as a single ecosystem all life is subordinated to and governed by. To me they appear as the same inner source of a larger whole, although viewed from two different perspectives.