psychic life as a place within the events of another body

We always turn to the inside. To the pictorial forms of psychic life. Sáivu in Sami. We seek that connection with others. Be it our parents, a partner, a child, an animal or a place. We want it to have essence by going inward. But my inner person, in Sami conceptualized as Rádiengieddte, does not want to be taken care of by it, or rejected for it by its ability to establish this relationship with the other. Because he is the one who mediates our relationship to the greater insight that emerges between all opposites. When we are rejected because of an environment that fears this relationship with themselves and others, we learn at an early age to deal with it as they do. Through our actions we then mirrors how our own relationship to the person within us has been treated, but reflected through others. It becomes a way to still be able to have this contact with ourselves and at the same time feel that we have a kind of access, albeit a distorted one. We do not see the consequence it has both for us and for others, to constantly support or maintain our communication to this part of ourselves through what others reject and suppress in themselves. It becomes a way of being and, despite of everything, to be able to have a sense of belonging, however inhuman this appears to others around us. We believe that by putting ourselves into the place of others, and what they have to do to have it, that we gain access to ours by being their relationship to them as well. That by being it for them, we also take care of the concerns that the lack of it have created in them. Obviously it doesn’t work. Our attempts to get to the within of another person, to that which is between them and themselves together with us does not work. It doesn’t help no matter how much we try to take care of others, or try to transform our relationships into what we want to see of ourselves in someone else. Everyone has to make that experience in themselves in order to be able to have it with others. We do not feel more accepted because we entertain an idea about it, or a set of rational considerations of literal facts about what it is. Or have far-fetched speculations about them without them having a perceptible inner relation to us in the immediate situation when we turn to the interior of the other. Instead, we will only feel left out, and drawn into someone else’s inner conflicts in the relationship they have with themselves. It is not only a relation between me and myself but also my and everyone else’s personal relation to people around us as a group, society, or entire countries. No matter which scale we choose, it is always our own personal relationship to what this is to us in the other that shows us our true face. We have learned to compensate for our perceived feeling of being rejected and limited in what is a natural access to ourselves and that of people in our immediate environment. In the worst case, we constantly take revenge on others by interrupting, correcting, using psychological and physical violence against everything we later have come to suppress in our relation between us and ourselves since it is what our person within has learned from people around us. What he and his inner counterpart Rádien-Niejta have been exposed to is their way of acting towards us which then turns our actions into their retaliation against our surroundings psychological abuse. We constantly try more or less consciously to create or find that in our environment that allows us to act on the basis of the psychological abuse that this person within us have been exposed to but have not yet understood how it come to exerts its influence on us. Its like they are constantly looking for some kind of vindication from others without us knowing what we are doing when we recreate our inner conflict with others.