Leaving the old sludge of relationships, our attitude and the dependencies the person we used to be had, just to be able to control them, for the spontaneous person we are in the present is terrifying and anxiety-filled. A transformation where we leave that one behind because we feel that that attitude drags us down into a mess that mixes together our inner person with others. We feel it clearly as a dark, unpleasant presence that tries to pull us down and away from the direct presence we have with people around us where we see them for what they are. For better or for worse. Without judging them for either one or the other. It is what it is, our own choice as we encounter it. We then come to experience our second birth. Which will leave our anxiety ridden person we were behind for the one we are going to become. The person we have been to others believes that we are our psychic reflection, and reacts accordingly, not that it is something independent of us in relation to what we reflect on which conveys its content to us.
We come to realize that we no longer want to indulge in and leave ourselves wind by wave in the hands of others. We want to be a part of what happens to us and feel enraptured by what that person we are going to be is to us. It is our first experience of that other within, of what it means to us.
This is exactly where Radiengieddte and Radien-niejta come into play. Where our psychic reflection becomes embodied nature as part of us. Because they convey the relationship to Maderattje and Maderakka. For Maderakka, it is also means to go through and endure the experiences the meeting with Sarakka, Uksakka and Juksakka entails. This is incredibly stressful and will have consequences to our lives. We must learn to partially leave Saivo, and our family there, if we are to live in this world.