in the wilderness of instinctive energy, and the questioning of the heart of a distorted identity

There are some general steps that I have gone through on and off throughout my life that I think I have in common with everyone else. They were first brought to my attention and formulated in the movie Ghandi. An order that for me is about how we descend into our basic human values. In the movie it was the act of non-violence against the British occupation. This is about the occupation of our individual basic human values. They are of course the same because the collective identity is the individual in pluralis. But we have different experiences in relation to them, so we get to deal with them differently. First, we are too young, we may still be well into our adulthood for this, but we ignore our basic human values ​​in our adaption to the environment. Then we become condescending and look down on them. We also begin to defend ourselves and become threatening and aggressive towards them before we finally accept that we have them ourselves. In this sense, people around us, our collective, which our parents are an extension of are not necessarily evil. But when our basic human values ​​are one-sidedly judged from their external, material side, and we judge ourselves and the importance of others exclusively from it, we do harm because we believe that our value solemnly rests on a collective basis. Outside of us. In other things, ideas, and in other people and social contexts. Not on basic values ​​that exist within ourselves that we share with everyone else, and in a psychic awareness of them that we can safely share in our own way. If we are so preoccupied with our own importance in the opinion of others, we experience them only superficially in ourselves and we usually do not even perceive them in relation to each other. We think we are doing good but we are the cause of a lot of pain and suffering. So evil exists in our midst. Among the ones we like the most. We are that evil. But it is also something we have to face and relate to anew every morning we get out of bed. They also decide how we ourselves want to be treated. Who we want close, and who we want to keep at a distance. Some of which we have to avoid completely because they have too many layers of defensive protection for the pain our basic human values causes in them because of the abuse they have been subjected to. We just cannot share our vessel with them, or our psychic consciousness without being hurt or getting ourselves pulled into their circle of conflicts. It just doesn’t work if they can’t be that vessel for themselves. There is no point of entry. But apart from the sense of becoming invaded by such a person, of its collective identity. We already got our meaning in relation to the inherent values ​​of life that were given to us when we came into this existence.