Kategori: Natur

I have come to realize that what i think or imagine, and what i accept as my reality, really appears to me as having this physiognomic quality of its own.
What i relate to and call experience obviously has a phenomenology and a reality in its own right.
Its behaviour is actually independent of me.
I cannot recognize experience as the source of all things. Its appearance is more like the behaviour of an interior reality making itself personally known from behind what i imagine.
It is something making its point with the energy of my impulses trying to break free from the literalization of my perceptions.

Every individual is part of an underlying unified reality from which everything emerges and to which place everything returns. We live in this contantly re-created timeless substantiality.
Time in this sense, is a world of shared relationships with every other phenomenon as part of a total set of time. It is the absolute aspect of reality behind all life.
From this we are able to grasp the invisible patterns of life as they are composed of the impressions that creates a relation of continuity to being out of which we transcend the life experiences of a single lifetime. We use to relate to this by traditions, from where we observed and maintained all extra ordinary experience of energy that came into our existance in our daily lives.
It is a part of us that permeates all existance. It is what makes us human.
While a modern society primarily focus on making professionals, traditional learning have always focused on making people humans first.
Today we have taken on the painstaking dilemma of how to make them both at the same time.

I can only speak for myself, my soul, sui generis, when i say that my senses have been colonized. I have been this intellectual extension of something else.
By indoctrination my mind and essence has been the intellectual property of others, and in that sense my experiences have also been foreign to me and pre-conceptualized into that other.
To me, people really seem to believe that constantly having a lecture of ideas and presenting facts is how we should relate to each other.
But I do not derive my being from that. It is not how i am made accessible to myself.

From within the memory of our dna, we receive instructions from nature as a first-hand experience of having relationships at the heart of knowledge.
But for most people of today, the reality of knowledge is only to be found within the emotionality of collective opinions.

There is always a balance between our senses directed by the ordinary material world of what is knownable a posteriori and the world of experiences created a priori, of itself and complementary to what we do know. It is what we are from the point of view of our memory in the shape of our dna. We can never know what it is in itself. But we act on its impulse. On its instructions or guiding principles.
It is our relation to life.

Life is our religion. Of our belonging to a certain time and place. And to the sense of having experiences of continuity which trancends the individual experience of a single lifetime.

We are this shared relation of two different states of being with everything else. In our experience of causality it switch its behavior within the same objective phenomenon of matter from where it originates into personal energy, and at the same time, as it is able to act in different places interchangeably, and in completely different individual structures of space, this experience is an ongoing creation personally manifesting itself as imagination and form.
We share the same origin and phenomenological source that is described by theoretical physics. Another great way to describe it is by the term everywhen.

I now realise that the great emptiness i sometimes experienced in my youth was the missing and partly forgotten cultural tradition that i needed to have to be able to process the forms that provide us with the symbolic shapes and meaning of our physical reality. It is really a strange and bewildering experience for anyone to try to live and find a way surrounded with that kind of desolation.
Our experiences will not make sense to us, no matter what they will teach us at school.

Having previously dreamt of a bear, and not long ago being chased by a bear in a dream, later also wrestling with one until we came to an exhausted stand still infront of its cub. The bear obviously have a vivid symbolic reality in me. Some of the processes going on in me seem to have put the bear at its center. Suddenly i think i understand some of the rituals connected to the bear and other things otherwise unknown to me as they become realised in a way that is really not supported by my actual life. I try to follow up on it, listening to its almost imperceptible phenomenology. But in reality some of the patterns governing the bear in its life is simply something i just relate to as being a shared behavioural pattern by us humans. We are the same, and we share some of our personality traits as they are part of our behavioral setup too. And none of us like to be abruptly waken when we are sleeping.
It is really an impressive and dangerous animal when its private space is disturbed.

There is always some misunderstanding involved in words that make sweeping statements, like totemism, which is about our predetermined nature of behaviour, and the voices of energy behind all lifes instinctual patterns that is guiding man, animals and plants. A word says nothing about the focused listening that involves identifying and acquiring the gift of some esteemed patterns by man from within himself. Of what is to be achieved by deep reflection, and the finding of the same psychic patterns in the symbolic source of life for either a specific need, or for use as guidance.
What is called totemism is about coming to terms with our entering into life from behind life itself.

I live in a sort of inverted world.
People don’t use physical masks to personify or express ancestral powers. Instead, they use these invisible masks and postures to mimic positions and exercise the behaviour associated with them while referring to them from within their chosen incarnation.
It’s quite maddening because it turns people inside out and depreciates the experience people may have of their individual reality.

If i didn’t have this sense of a touchless, living framework forming inside of me to put my experiences in, my only option would be to put myself in a learned fiction of some memorised reality, and then start to think that the knowledge i now put in front of me, is what i am.
Oh my, isn’t that just exactly what I have been doing…
When i do this to myself, i become split up into a lot of different acts and fictions of reality. Of what is right or wrong, good or bad, or sick and healthy, as in the logic of the material settings of a completely intellectual approach to life. And i will fall into a behaviour of ethics totally depended on opposites, to keep up moral, to be impeccable and spotless. And i would constantly try to show others what my moral standards are in terms of dramas that i would create for them. Which i still do. These are dramas that would make me evil. It is what I bring to the world. Something i create to be able to hold the image i have of what i think i am together. I will become consumed by the idea that I am all good and completely loose my conception of what the reality of evil is.
As this is according to the collective beliefs we are trying to conform to, by which my parents where an extension, and to whatever role i may find appealing in a technical sense to present myself in. It is right here that a traditional framework will come in handy to support the energized experiences we have, and the ancestral source of reality as being something collectively useful coming out of us.
Most people are completely at loss in their own experience of having a metaphysical life. Because in this sense, we live our lives in a mindset, a nagging pain constantly battering our senses with a onesided rational environment, promulgating the view not to pay too much attention to our experiences, because of the questioning and embarrassmets that hits us from within our absence of its challenge.
Luckily, such experiences can only be erased when humans become extinct.
And there is no doubt we will be if we don’t come to terms with this anytime soon now.

Thinking in itself is the mechanical reordering of a collective set of perceptions and the logic of what is without any connection to the reality of our experiences.

Humans, plants and animals are related because in the beginning of a world of experiences they were interchangeable.
”That is to say that everything in the natural world has a relationship with every other thing and the total set of relationships makes up the world as we experience it.”(Vine Deloria)
And time as an experience in this sense, does not pass. It is an aspect of reality. Percieved as passed it is a set of different times in a constant reality of absolute time. Because time has to be part of something. This is what gives our senses the ability to take part in the relations experience have of everything simultaneusly.
It is a constant phenomenological reality we relate to as all time, or sometimes just as eternity.

It seems more and more obvious to me that the experience we have of our relations is rooted in the perception of a shared reality that goes far beyond any physical differences. There is this common essence of life. An interchangable ability that permeates everything in relation to an acasual natural phenomena of interaction, translated into this language of silence, reflection and nourishment present in all existance.

Animism is a word that is used when the phenomenology of a special relation to a place, to earth, to animals, trees or plants is beyond comprehension, because a single word cannot possibly describe the power inherent in the content of these relations. They have to be lived and experienced, mimicking is not life. The understanding of a word in itself cannot contain anything of that energy, or anything even close to the nature of its origin. At best, it is an empty attempt of a materialistic mindset to imitate these relations by way of abstraction.
The cogent respect to all life is absent. It is just not in there.

The identification of gender masculinity to the psychological conception of consciousness in both men and women, as an invokation of a distant christian authorative psychopathic god with a need to inflict pain on everyone who does not follow him, or show reverence, is a horrible mistaken identification of the relation we should have to the nature of this experience. And to the function of nature inside itself. This christian type of relation is an old culturally conditioned one on how we should act in its best interest, and in the best interest of it towards each other. Almost everyone in todays society has become this pain ridden follower to its madness. And most have learned its lesson very well, acting accordingly to everyone who do not listen to its substantial claims of the other, or to other peoples psychological setup.
This gives me a good reason to belive that this is the primal root of todays feminism. To the defenses it creates, and the increasing awareness that is experienced as a threat to an old outdated cultural conditioning.

I think we are all part of these vibratory patterns of physical energy, where causality in a sense turn our essence into notes in a wave of music that requires time to exist. We are vibrating notes in an unconscious symphony where both living things, and places in our world share a relation to two different states of being with everything else. Our experience of this causality can switch its behavior within the same objective phenomenon of matter from where it originates into energy, and at the same time, act in different places, and in completely different individual structures of space.
This is casuality experienced as an ongoing creation personally manifesting itself as imagination and form.

When we are unable to discover our being as part of an individual experience of universal time, and how to live under an aspect of the sacrosanct experience as a reference for us to become humans, we live with what is present but not part of our conscious intention. Our ancestral part of the mind and its empirical world really is a life of its own, with demands of its own psychic assumptions.
Creation here is a kind of instant recognition. Something that is going on both inside us, and all around us at the same time. Its an ongoing process. Not some reprocessed moral dogma derived from certain political or religious historical references in relation to authoritarian ”fathers”.
We define ourselves in respect to how we can make our experiences applicable to the world. And if this is what all universe share as a structure in which all creation participate, is it not just logical to also assume that all creation have the ability to simultaneously relate to every other part of creation to which it also participates?
Which is to say, When a certain recognition is not made part of our conscious attitude, it will reappear to us objectively like something out of fate.
That fate will then demonstrate itself in outbursts of protests to a lack of acceptable leadership, political turmoil, climate change, pollution, dehumanisation, devaluation of psychological processes and religious traditions.
It really gives one a sense of humanity being on a visible path to the destruction of our world. Its almost like the view we have of our world and its present state is about to come to an end.
However important that psychological collective brakedown is, the most important part of this is that it also gives us a hint towards that which really have to change.

I am only a passage of generations in the shape of the human mind through the experience of the initial paternal principle of form and energy associated with mythology and the cultural products of man.
I am not an idea, or the conceptual and symbolic reality it creates. I am nature, matter and earth.
I am a son by a specific father’s complex, a fabric of the personal unconscious of natural occurrences in every human being. But I am also part of man’s mythology. And the ancestral source that generated me.
That’s what the experience of personal reality does, it exercises the role of fertilizing the primordial forces that impregnate us.

When we are not able to access our nature in a living psychological context that gives substance to matter, the world becomes a distant place.

Prayer in a modern sense is to wait for an idea, or something to be realized that is not the result of pure reasoning. We are looking for an answer that is beyond that.
So, what we are trying to do is to put our ego’s at rest for a moment, and create a connection to a source that is not directly available to the ego.
By definition I think this will qualify as praying, whether my ego wants to admit to it or not.
That is to say that we don’t pray to history, or to a past. It is something we do all the time.
Its really a kind of mystery. But we all do it.
It is our base of reflexion.

There is this substance of matter. Or essence if you like, that is placed inside the physical or material world of objective experience. It is what we call the nature of ”things”. The world from within. We find it everywhere. In people, places, plants and animals. And yet, somehow we seem to have forgotten that we take part in it not only through scientific reasoning, but also directly with our senses. We get access to it as experience filtered through our background and in the psychological layers of our ancestral past.
There is an obvious difference in our approach to reality between them, but they are of equal validity.
From a human perspective though, from the reality of personal experience, and from how we experience things in our world, it is really disorienting for anyone not being able to access our nature in a living psychological context that gives substance to matter.
What this will do to us is to create a suffering that is really quite maddening because there is no medical illness that we can attach to an experience like that. We have become unable to relate our personal experience to a living world. And we have no frame of mind that we can put it in. There is no cure to this by diagnosis, by some pills, or some self treatment with alcohol. It can only be treated by individual experience. And by the expulsion of the conceptual reality of the collective mind.
This absence of relations is something we get from the experience of the world as a symptom.

I think it is because most people right now doesn’t have an objective experience of the essence of our being, and an experience of it as a continuous revelation in communion to nature in both places and people, instead of in history and its events, that causes them to have this compulsive need to always philosophically try to explain everything. To search for external explanations.
And by trying to create a materialistic, or intellectually fixed reality, placing our spirit in concepts and ideas, we really miss out on having an ongoing living sense of reality based on experience in terms of our relationship to life.
In this context, belief is not something that is available to me as a replacement for experience.
And by looking at the world, it does not seem to be working there either.