dealings with the judgement of others

When we identify ourselves with the roles whose content is then supposed to represent the total content of the personality, they end up in opposition to, and in conflict with, the primordial whole. The inadequacy and rejection of the whole that this creates within us will then shape the background from which we act. But this happens without a conscious relationship to the importance of a self-observant relationship to our impressions and impulses. When the inadequacy that this creates within us dominates our personality, we become judgmental not only towards ourselves but also towards others, which only further reinforces the rejection and inadequacy. The original whole is suppressed in favor of the content that our pretence personalities contains outside of it. This will continue to add more and more weight to an already heavy psychological and emotional burden and to the feeling of being inadequate and exiled from an embodied sense of a greater context from within. Regardless of the fact that it is something we do to ourselves and to the original whole by not allowing ourselves to approach it. Constantly showing ourselves capable, knowledgeable and measuring ourselves against others where our pretences becomes more important than the relationship to ourselves and the communication with the inner person that mediates the contact to the greater whole it communicates, which in turn exposes that relationship to the psychological violence and abuse that we, with our constant feeling of inadequacy and its bad conscience, express by constantly judging ourselves and being judgmental towards others. We experience this not only in ourselves but we are constantly exposed to it by others around us. Approaching the whole we once abandoned and seeking our personal ties to it as mature people again, is what makes us let go of the brutal dominance our aquired persona sub-personalities have over the relationship to the psychological reflection we need for the contact to it. To make matters worse and further rub salt in the wounds, when the societal norm is allowed to replace the male parental figure, instead of being its expression, the difficulties in communication between our inner person and the larger whole increase significantly. However, because of the shift in consciousness it entails, it always implies a significant worry and severe anxiety before these trials are balanced within us. Also, this often means that we have to endure a prolonged and persistent psychological torment with difficult moral dilemmas. Which can lead to the expression of unpredictable and drastic actions, often with tragic consequences when their significance remains unknown to the person going through it. I also dare to suggest that it was this experience that made Friedrich Nietzsche write Also sprach zarathustra.