To meditate or to be in a state of self-observation means to experience the dissolution of the body, to get used to being absorbed in, and participating in a psychic world, with one’s own inner reality, or Sáivu-world. And to find our own personal approach to the underlying origins of sensations, the patterns of experience that we have created from their influence on us. We constantly switch between these states and the conditions they create when we meet others. But when we find ourselves in our psychic background and confuse it with the physical one, we end up in conflict with where we are. When we are our sensations, we make it difficult for us to see what it is that creates the conflict because our sensations are simultaneously an expression of both the inspiration behind the content acting on us, while also constituting its psychic form. But when we can observe them as they appear within us, we meet them on their own terms. At this personal level, it is almost always a matter of our failure to meet that within us that directs our inspiration or psychic energies back to their proper and original sources. We become overwhelmed and take the psychic energy to be our own instead of it being guided back to its origins, without burdening anyone else. Likewise with nature of which we are in a dissolved way a physical part, and the psychic container we are for its experience. If we don’t give it back, back to nature itself as its true vessel, we end up in conflict with ourselves. With the one within us who alone can carry and endure the energy that we try to regard as our own, but which in fact no human being can endure in the long run without serious psychological consequences for ourselves and for our lives. He is the gatekeeper. He who makes us afraid of ourselves, of the dark, and shows us the right way. If we trust him, he will help us let go. The psychic energy then flows through us without us damming it up, or that we become clogged. Everything corporeal here becomes temporary and is placed in a timeless perspective of repetitions. Our sensations stop and we end up in a state of inner equilibrium. It is against the background of that experience that we feel whole. But if we resist his influence and make his function ours, everything becomes pure hell. We end up in Ruohtta, the place that is the sum of all psychic energy that is not ours or anyone else’s to bear, whose pet wolf will tear us to pieces from within. This is where we end up already as children when we do not yet understand, or have been introduced to what is variously transformed into patterns of living life against the background of our inner wholeness, and to the inspiration that drives us through them. If we are subjected to this through coercion or through an authoritarian attitude, we are thrown into Ruohtta, because we are not allowed to grow out of the inner whole on our own terms with the help of an environments experiences of it. Instead, we are forced to face powers that we are not yet ready for, and can contain within ourselves. Even less for others. Since it is psychic energy in its raw unprocessed form. So we are then compelled to find a relationship with it that we can handle. Mostly by transferring its power through pressure, to try to get others to yield to its power when we experience it within ourselves, or habitually expect criticism or belittlement and are therefore constantly on alert to be able to defend ourselves against an invisible inner enemy, without understanding its true meaning, exposing us to the loss of being separated from our own inner wholeness.