to go back to who we once were when we came to this life within us but as an adult

We all can see and interact with our inner person, or spirit in a classical sense, inspiration in its modern sense, all the time. I also see his interaction with me from way back by going back to who I once was when I was a child but now as an adult, and once again go through the process he went through by partially stepping out of the preconscious whole with my emerging person within me and with that begin to separate my preconscious inner parents, Máderáhttje and Máttaráhkká in Sami, from my real parents. With what it meant to my view of them that they were never as perfect, inviolable and invulnerable as those I related to within myself, and in that sense as also part of the whole that my newborn ego then began to relate me back to through the inner person with whom I simultaneously began to create a connection to through my ego. Just discovering the imperfection, the disparity that arose within me between them, without having it confirmed was hard enough. Without my grandparents it would never have been possible. Because it creates a psychological conflict that we stage in our lives in different ways. I can see the same struggle and confusion all around me. The anxiety and incipient sense of emptiness, vulnerability and psychic loneliness that comes from being almost completely separated from one’s inner parents. Not being able to turn inward and really trust the inner person who will be the one who shows the way. Who will continue to convey the content that the ego in a constant dialogue with him put in relation to my life. Which content is what we call experience. It is what creates a direct relationship to the preconscious wholeness, conceptualized in Sami as the Sáivu world we carry within us in our daily lives because it is something I constantly relate to within myself as something within others as well.