actually, there is no word for it, it’s an experience

When we literalize the relationship we have with our surroundings, we strip it of its psychic roots. All our interpersonal relationships with it cease and we end up in a void. Detached from our interpersonal consciousness. We get caught up in the contagious world of compensating for our inner emptiness by constantly dragging others into our inner unresolved abyss of mental turmoil, and the confusion that occurs when we see our inner cultural parent couple, Máderáhttje and Máttaráhkká not only through our parents, but appearing in all our relations around us without them ever being rendered back to us in their original psychic form. In the role they have in relation to our inner sense of an outer whole and their absolute form beyond our actual parents’ limitation of their influence on us, and confused with a society’s collective morals and general habits of life. This may turn into the place where we will be persistently plagued by the torments of the sami Rota-aimo. To fend ourselves from its influence on us, we turn into defense prone, importunate, aggressive and greedy one-eyed giants. But if we allow the forces acting on our objective person to approach us from the whole from which they affect us, we discover not only that, but that we share all human qualities with everyone else there because they are our personal experience of how they affect us. We experience it between us and ourselves also as parts of the other, of him or herself. Not through beliefs that come from something we’ve read, been told by someone else, or been forced to accept. But by experiencing it as something in our relationship to our inner objective personality. It will also implicate that our reflective personality will stage a kind of initiation. Psychologically we will suffer terribly from the conflict that arises with the giant we relate to, and its world, until we are transformed by its encounter with the objective other within and the wholeness he conveys. That giant and its attitude has become the outer person we have used to cover for the psychic wound that arose since we abandoned our inner wholeness for him. Much of the anxiety and loss of energy we experience arises in the encounter we have with those within who when we are accepting their presence, formulate and inspire us with their energy, unlike the giant who, in a literal sense, constantly compare us to others or what we experienced transferred to something else before. To replace us with what was already between us and ourselves. But he is actually also the one who is finally going to prepare the way for our initiation into the interpersonal consciousness and the personalities we find there in what is called saivo in Sami.