my life as image and reflection

When we grow up and still have a strong connection to the larger whole we are a part of and come to develop the image of ourselves that we then adapt to in order to correspond to the expectations and demands placed on us from outside, we also simultaneously through all that which are not part of the image we have developed, create our constant adversaries which are all that which are not part of what constitutes our adaptation. Children with a close connection to nature experience this as a severe limitation, to be forced into such a reduction of the whole that they are a part of. It is also very confusing to be forced into all of the opposites it creates by the expectations found in that self-image when we try to live up to it. Because alongside it, we live with the psychic dominants that organize our within through the reflection we have access to by our psychic consciousness, and in relation to the forces that exert their influence on us since they are part of the wholeness we are accustomed to when we grow up. If we are not introduced to these expectations as something belonging to that image as a kind of vessel for the external adjustment to the impersonal social relations we must make, our lives will turn into a constant struggle between the opposites it creates for us and our intrasubjective world becomes a turmoil in black and white. We will be constantly torn between good and evil and the distorted morality it creates within us. That in turn, will be the experience we then get from the world around us. No matter what we are told about it. As long as we are not blown out of ourselves by others’ need to be self-affirmed, by the psychic winds of their self-image, we will always have the connection we need to the person within us and his companions in our shared intra-subjective world. They will always guide us and give us instructions as we walk further and further into life, if we have learned to pay attention to them. We are really going to need to muster all the heroic strength we can to navigate between these opposites, but only partly in an external sense. The true strength we must find is to uphold this tension and not put on a blind-fold for one to the benefit of, or suppression of the other. It is truly mentally exhausting to experience the one-sidedness of this attitude that is prevalent in our culture’s psychic consciousness. Any change for the better, or doing what needs to be done is lost in its potential, in its own opposite, and in a constant competition driven by the ego’s confusion with the influence of heroism, which in that sense loses its connection to the within in the without.