I do not reject other people. I just find it increasingly difficult to associate with people who try to replace me with themselves because they feel outside the conversation we must have with the wholeness that is constantly within us, in our immediate vicinity and that surrounds us. In this space we also connect to the forces that protect and strengthen that relationship we have to ourselves, to Nature and to the earth as a body in a cosmic setting. Through our conversation with that wholeness, we keep it intact and sense a balance in this context because it is then a part of us at the same time as we are a part of it. It is in this that I feel that I have direct access to the connections that exist all around us.
How disturbed are we not if we constantly must try to go between others and themselves, to find ourselves between anyone or anything and that? Because this is the relationship we all have in common, and what creates this something that we see and connect to in everything around us. The absence of this is also what creates the feeling that there is something wrong with the world. But it is us. What we neglect in relation to this psychic essence within this space that is our experience of being in an outer wholeness. Which is also what exists as a volatile presence in everyone around us. Do we want what is real or do we want to live in what it was before? Do we want what makes us real or do we just want to fill others with our own inner opposites?
By evicting others from themselves, we replace their contact with their inner center with the opposites that are our own, with our own conflicts between this something that is at the center of us that is also made of what is the whole of what we are in. No one wants to end up in an oppositional relationship between our inner center and its corresponding sense of an outer whole. No one wants to live without that context. But we must find out what it is, how, and where it wants to appear to us. For the sake of this world, we should all have been allowed to be carried by the genuine sense of beingness that the original whole gives us, which we have a constant living contact with in our lives. It should not form the basis of the conflict we have with ourselves, and with ourselves through others. Or with how it relates us to Nature. I really respect the helplessness I sense in others here. What I also sensed in my parents at an early age. Their need to deny that it challenges a culturally oppressed relationship they carried within them. The absence of an affirmation, ritual or otherwise, of the need we have to be in the immediate presence of what it is, and to really be part of its larger context. But this is the ”job” we must do for ourselves. If I do it to me, I do it to others too. They do not have to defend themselves or suffer the opposites I have within me then.